Sneak Peek into a Girl's Thoughts

i'm pretty sure guys wouldn't understand this but please don't mislead a girl and try to make her fall for you and then disappear or stop being nice to her.

when a girl falls for you, it's really hard for her to get over you. so please think carefully whether you really want the girl to be your girlfriend before you actually make advances towards her and make her fall for you. if you're not gonna be consistent about your actions, i'd say please stay away from the girl, because in the end it is the girl who suffers the most. 

it's really selfish for a guy to make every girl in your circle of friends like you so that you can feel macho or manly or that you'd have 'choices' because of your ego. be sensitive and think of the girl's feelings as well please. like i said, if you're not planning to keep the girl as your girlfriend then don't make a girl fall for you by leading her on. 

i've seen my girl friends suffer around me because of these kind of guys, and trust me, it's not a pretty sight. since i have also been one of the victims, i know EXACTLY how it feels to be rejected or ditched later by the guy. and i'm speaking about emotionally being ditched aside. 

guys, grow up and be a man, go after a girl only when you've decided that you want to keep her forever in your life, don't make advances and then ditch us aside, we're not your toys to play with. we're humans with feelings as well. i know that nowadays, there are plenty of girls that make it so easy for you guys because they take on the dominant role and confess their feelings first, but if you really are a man, you will respect all girls and treat us nice whenever but don't cross the line if you don't want to keep us by your side, we're still happy to be your friend, just don't let our feelings get hurt and ditch us aside. once a girl gets too emotional, she is prone even to suicide. 

speaking from experiences, i suffered a lot and even got into despression, i didn't know what to do, but luckily there are still friends that i can count on and also God who stayed by my side and comfort me, guiding me to move on. but for those who don't know about God, it's really hard for them and i actually have friends who took a really long time like a year to actually get over a guy she thought that would potentially be her boyfriend. 

who is to say that nice guys finish last? nice guys are mostly taken. what about NICE girls who finish last? we are the nice girls and yet nobody notices, because there are other girls who makes it so easy for a guy to get without the guy having to put much effort in it. we, the nice girls, would like guys to put in effort to get us because we can then see the sincerity of your heart, so that we know you really want us, but nowadays, guys just go with whoever comes along and confesses to them, so then, what is gonna happen to us NICE girls? should we still wait around for our Mr. Right to come and sweep us off our feet? reason why we don't make the first move because this is not the tradition, back in the days, the guys are the one making the first move.

has society changed so much that we get left behind? are there any guys out there who believe that guys should be the one making the first move? i have had a guy friend coming up to me telling me that his ego was shattered because the girl made the first move and he's not used to that. are there any more of this kind of guys? 

XOXO

Suey

Rant

i dislike anti-social  rude people. especially when they're hanging out with me, they'll just look / play with their phone or chat on whatsapp etc with their friends as if i'm invisible. especially while i'm talking, can you stop playing with your phone and focus? so rude of you.

you made me sat there like i was invisible.

are you hanging out with your phone or me?

i think humans have become a slave to technology, it's not technology who serves us now but us serving the technology. wake up you idiots ! stop being rude to your friends / love ones. don't sit at the dining table with your parents and play with your phone while having a meal, it's down right rude and it's like you're not educated  with manners.

XOXO

Suey

Concerts I've Been To Since October...

1. Wonder Girls
2. Big Bang (bought ticket)
3. Lee Seung Gi
4. 2AM
5. NU'EST

wow. also, i attended Jay Park on 27th September 2012 in Sydney before i flew back.


woot ! concert filled my end of the year.

XOXO

Suey

MEME T-SHIRT

Oh, i bought a meme t-shirt on Sunday. for the fun of it.

it's pretty cool.

XOXO

Suey

Honey, I'm Home.

wow !

hey people, don't know if there's anyone who still reads my blog but hey! i'm back in Malaysia and this time it is for good, i hope.

i missed the friends, the food, my parents of course and the malls. basically everything and it feels good to be back!

i will update what has happened during my stay for 2 months now.

i've been job hunting but there ain't no news yet from any of the companies that i have applied. please pray for me and for job opportunities. i need to start somewhere. friends have been helpful, giving me advices etc. love you people to bits.

as for now, since i am not employed yet, i have been blessed with so many outings and concert tickets, to satisfy my crave and love for kpop music, my best friend Ruth, whom is like my own sister, works in a radio, has been generous enough to bless me with tickets to at least 5 concerts so far.

I WANNA SAY
THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART ! I REALLY ENJOYED EACH CONCERT !

I remember arriving in Malaysia on a Thursday night and my friend told me that we got tickets to Wonder Girls which will be playing 2 days later, i was shocked. LOL

anyway, every other concert is a shock and excitement for me. enjoyed it to the max nevertheless!

update more in next post.

XOXO

Suey

I Remember...

I remember...

the first time I met you in your car, you came to pick my brother and I up for a late night movie.

after I told your cousin what I came to Australia to study, you immediately said "maybe you should work on your communication skills".

did you know? it was only my second week here in a foreign country, still missing my friends and family back home, trying to absorb and trying to adapt to the environment here.. and here you are, saying such harsh words to me when we just met for the FIRST TIME.

funny how time flies, and it was obvious that you had a crush on me, and had made me fell hard for you.

in a way, I hated you for that. but I managed to get over you.

so here's to you, engaged and found someone you're happy being with.

Cheers.

XOXO

Sue

Decisions, decisions.

Just over an hour ago, I heard gossips, negative comments, criticisms about my "stupid" decisions in life, almost assuring me that I will regret for the rest of my life coming from the next room. Even though she whispers, I can still hear her crystal clear.

I don't know what to feel, it is my decision, it is the path I chose, it could also be God's path for me. Whatever it is, I am most happy about the result of my decisions. In fact, I just put my trust in God and trust Him to lead me to wherever He wants me to be, whatever path He has chosen for me. 

I just don't get people, why they have to gossip about others' decisions and then commenting on how stupid that person is! It does not affect them, it does not concern them, it does not even require them to use their money! Yet they think they know it all so that they can judge what people do with their lives. 

I know, I think they are just bored and have nothing else to talk about so they chose to gossip about people instead of supporting them in the decisions they make. 

God I pray for these people, I pray that you will shine your light on them so that they can see in the darkness, so that they may learn to love their own family, instead of criticizing and commenting on everything, they stand up and support people who needs it, and banned their mouth from gossiping about others. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Spiritual or Physical Satisfaction?

You know how people always say that we have a soul / spirit and it resides in our body? Our body is just a temporary home for the soul until it dies, we never really die because our soul lives forever.

Well, I have been asked by my friends about why am I not worried about getting a boyfriend at all? Do i not feel pressure about the people around me? And funny thing is, I rarely worry about getting a boyfriend, it's not that I'm not attracted to guys but I just don't think about it too much. Am i weird?

And then I see my friends around me having relationship problems or changing guy after guy like as if they are changing their clothes. Then I think to myself "Wow, thank god I'm not the one experiencing all these ugly things/ pain/ feelings."

Been pondering over my friend's question for more than 2 months I think, and then it hit me while I was in the shower just now.

Note: Read only if you want to, not forcing.

Reason why I never been worried about not getting a boyfriend is because spiritually I am satisfied. I was thinking "if you keep changing guy after guy and sleeping with them, you're only satisfying your physical self. What about your soul? It needs food too! " and I thought to myself "i've heard many of my friends complain about every guy they have been with and they DO NOT sound satisfied by this guy at all ! In fact, they date because of covering up their wounds, replacing another guy, just for the company or money etc." They never even took time off to reflect and find themselves, to mourn the past relationship, to wake up.

The bible says "After the mourning has ended, joy will always come after that." which is SO TRUE !

So, by changing partners and sleeping with them and having them by your side 24/7, why do you still feel hollow? Like a part of you is missing. My answer would be "Because I have Jesus, He is the one feeding my soul and funny enough, I feel safe and secure thinking I have Him with me at all times!" Even better than having a boyfriend whom you only see once a week or end of the day and does not know what he is doing other than working. Knowing that Jesus listens to your every prayer, provides you with things you need - never short, and He will never forsake you + He loves you unconditionally.

So yeah, the answer finally came through to me and I thought I'd like to blog about it because some of my closest friends are non-believers and it's hard to share with them because they will never ever understand the satisfaction and privilege of knowing Jesus as their Lord and Saviour.

That is all.



~Friends are angels in disguised sent by God to take care of you~

~Friends are a blessing because I know that I am not alone in this cruel world and I have to thank God for friends~

~Never ever take friendship lightly because even when you are rich, you may buy friends but you can never buy happiness or the love that your real friends and family showed you~

~Never worship money because it is the root of all evil~

~Always think before you speak, speak words of encouragement and blessings into people's lives, NEVER EVER discourage anyone~

~Always show kindness and LOVE to people, you never know when you might need it one day too~

Attention Seeking Idiot

people who are skinny/slim and complains that they are FAT are stupid attention seeking idiots.

god made you the way you are, appreciate yourself please, stop complaining. in Africa, the people don't even have food. did you ever think about others?

nuff said.

What pisses me off most...

You know what pisses me off most?

People who are always on their STUPID PHONES when they hang out with me but does not reply text or pick calls when i call/message them. 

Just throw your fucking phone away man. Seriously. 

Don't give me all the nice bullshit in front of me when really you don't even have the courtesy to at least send me a text message just to ask 'what's up?' ??? 

That's it, you're crossed out from my friend list. And this is not your first time. 

Screw you.

Brave

Oh !

I went to watch Brave in cinemas yesterday! It was so good ! Love the Irish accent ! haha...such a fun accent to imitate. (:

Anyway, I went with a guy friend of mine, the ticket seller guy didn't even asked us what seats we wanted and put us at the back, WHICH ARE COUPLE SEATS ! WHAT THE HELL !

Ugh.. I did not let that get to me, I enjoyed the movie nonetheless, it was hilarioussssss! did not see that bear sequence coming. Too hilarious ! I would recommend you to watch it, maybe not in the cinemas, it's really your choice but you have to see it ! (:

XOXO

Sue

Tommy's Farewell Hangout

I am so sad that my only Malaysian friend Tommy who is also my classmate, has left to go back to Malaysia for good.

Sooooo bummed out, i actually felt sad, we been through so much together, he has helped me so much and i would consider us to be really good friends in uni because we really don't hang out with other people besides ourselves. LOL - kinda anti-social i know but you really can't trust people nowadays. I've been through so much drama and shit and he and Jynn has been nothing but nice to me, helped me, comforted me. I can only thank them because I am so blessed to have known them.

Anyway, we went out to spend time together, just the two of us. Had lunch and then desserts. I really miss this dude now.

I can officially say that I have no friends here. It's sad especially when I'm in a foreign country. I guess this is life, we go through life alone most of the time as friends come and go. But definitely keeping in touch until I go back to Malaysia and see them again. SIGH.

XOXO

Sue

Reblogging

hmmm... hello... long time no blog...

lemme recall what i can write...

oh ya... i shot a fantastic horror film, i will upload once i get the digitalized version. it was shot in a cassette tape so my lecturer need to digitalize it before we can get it from him... stay tuned :)

i've had so much laughter this semester, more than all the semesters combined throughout the 3 years. maybe because i've become more relaxed and nonchalant. it helps. i love my production class (especially) ! they are such awesome and sweet people,not forgetting crazy and fun! :)

i got a job at cotton on kids. awesome awesome! god has blessed me so much this semester! PTL ! :)

i'm gonna be done with uni soon, hopefully i pass everything. pray for me pls! thanks heaps.

i can't think of anything else to blog, i'll come back for update maybe. :)

XOXO

Sue

U-Kiss - Amazing

Today, i went to the mall near my uni to get newborn baby stuff for my friend's baby shower.

Met up with a friend and we spent time together which was good.

As i waited for the bus home, a blind man who was standing beside me told me my perfume smelled really good. I was kind of lost for words, i said 'thank you' but i wanted to tell him what perfume i was using but my brain wouldn't function. dammit. anyway i kept saying thank you and smiled.


*knocks own head*

P/S. if you see the title that is unrelated to the post, it means i don't know what title to put so i post the name of the artist and song title that i'm currently listening to while i post this. (:

XOXO

Sue

Destiny Zoe Oh...

I am writing this post in remembrance of my friend's baby... who left us too soon...

Destiny Oh, you will always be remembered, even though I wasn't there to see you, you have touched my heart and I believe you have touched many others with your strong willpower to live.

You came into this world 9 months + ago, but left earth in within 3 days being officially out of your mommy's womb.

I am very sad to see my friend and her husband grieving over their little warrior princess. No parents should experience losing their child, especially if it's their first child.

I pray and believed that God has taken you into his arms, into heaven and into a safe place. You are safe with the Lord and you will be watching your parents up from heaven. I pray that God blesses your family and pray that they can find peace and joy in this time of grieving. Destiny, you really are a warrior princess!

Rest in peace dear girl. You will be dearly missed.

XOXO

Sue

The Dictator Movie Premier

I was blessed with two awesome movie premier tickets to watch THE DICTATOR. My friend couldn't make it so she gave me her tickets.

The movie was hilariousssssss and awesomeeeee. It was way beyond what I expected. I thought it's gonna be trashy like BORAT but no, it was AWESOME !

The jokes were about political issues in countries without democracy and lots of mockery and insults in this movie but it's okay, Australia is partly a free country with freedom of speech so it's all good. 

It is UNCENSORED as it gets. There was nudity in this film and it wasn't censored at all in Australian cinemas. HAHA! 

Best part of this premier experience? When Sacha Baron Cohen walked into the cinemas with his girls by his side and gave a speech in this exact costume and beard, plus the accent was a bonus! It was as hilarious as the film itself. AWESOME !

The part I did not enjoy? I'm sorry but the indian guys sitting on my right, reek of ONIONS _+ B.O. OMG! When I laugh to the movie, I always thought I was gonna die of suffocation. The smell was unpleasant to my nose. D:

Overall, It was a fun night ! Laughed through the whole movie! 

Watch this movie if you enjoy Slapstick comedy! :D

XOXO

Sue

Surprise Surprise! TEEHEE !

BOOYAH! 

WHAT IS THIS?  XD

This is my surprise! I'm so happy with this !

Yes its the TEEHEE Band from Ryan Higa's website. =)

Heh.... I got it 2 days ago but only got the time to upload it now! 

I love it!

XOXO

Sue

Feels Like Winter

You know, it's only autumn now in down under. It actually feels like freaking winter!!

I'm not complaining but it's just that i used to love Autumn because it ain't too cold for me to still wear a t-shirt and leggings. But now...the world is changing rapidly and the weather is totally unpredictable!

There was sun this afternoon but the breeze was freaking cold. The sun didn't last long though and then I was shivering like a wet dog. HAHA!

It's just the BEGINNING of Autumn and Thredbo has already started snowing this year. What is becoming of this world? Down under don't usually snow in Autumn.

Oh wells, time to pull out my winter clothes.

XOXO

Sue

Super Junior - Bonamana

listened to SBS POP ASIA app on my phone today.

it was a replay of yesterday's program, an aussie girl called in to request BONAMANA by Super Junior and she actually sang the song!! 

listening to an aussie singing in korean is way way too weird. TOO WEIRD.

XOXO

Sue

The Moment When...

The moment when you can't decide how to act when a really long lost friend suddenly comes to chat with you... Should I pick up where we left off? Or should I just chat to him as if we're just friends again, as in... just became friends, for the second time?

Awkward......................

Happy yet painful

Today, i went to watch Mirror Mirror in cinemas! Yay i liked it! Directed by a Singh. That's not the point.

Went to uni to check some stuff, checked my email and realised i received an email from Cotton On inviting me to go for a walk-in interview! Yay! Happy news! Problem is, the store is so far away. =/ no idea how to get there yet. we'll see how it goes. Wish me luck in getting a job!

Came home, was sitting on the stool in my kitchen, as i got up to walk to my room, directly below my left butt cheek, it started to hurt LIKE HELL! SO PAINFUL!!!!! The more i put pressure on my left feet, the more painful it gets. It's as if i have pulled a muscle or something. I thought i broke a nerve and am expecting a big bruise. Anyway, still painful, but not as painful as just now. Sigh.

Oh, please pray for more job opportunities for me, I am hoping to get somewhere near my place so i don't have to spend so much on transport since I don't get concession here. pfftt.. Thanks.

XOXO

Sue

No Common Sense?

have you ever had a friend who is so dumb to the point you get soooo frustrated and wonder how come they can survive without having common sense?

an interesting quote:

"common sense is not a gift, it's a punishment. Because you have to live with those around you who don't have."

Right?

Yes i have a friend experiencing exactly that too, so i totes understand how she feels about it....

OH GOD WHY?!

XOXO

Sue

BTOB - Insane

The way you "layan" is not layan.

You reply with 1 word after I wrote few hundred words doesn't mean a thing.

Forget it, might as well just don't reply at all. It doesn't defy your real meaning behind that 1 word.



Sue

Blessed to be a blessing.

sometimes, sharing your deepest dark secret with just 1 person, that special person that you trust most, be it a friend or your partner, makes your spirit feel lifted up.

once, i conducted a survey for my character building for my assignment, and one friend shared her secret with me, she told me she felt so much better because she hasn't told anyone about this at all. and i felt at that moment, that i have helped someone. even though not being there physically, i feel happy that she told me she felt better.

sometimes, we are an angel to some other people, could be a total stranger. and you never know who's day you've brighten up.

be kind to one another, love even your enemies, god will bless you as he has already blessed you with so much love so that you can go out and bless others. =)

be blessed to be a blessing.

XOXO

Sue

No Brain Decision

I made a very rushed decision last night!

I didn't even go through my brain, I just did it!!!

It was due to over-stressed!

I will post it up soon =P

You will know what it is soon!!!!! =D

SO EXCITED.

XOXO

Sue

Blessed Good Friday

This post has nothing to do with the title.

Hi,

Been soooo busy lately for the past 2 - 3 weeks and have been really stressed out with uni work.

I know, it's always this complain but this is a student's life.

I've been pushed and pressured to find another job and I dunno if I can handle it with all these uni work piling on top of me. I think I'm married to uni for now and have no time for other stuff. Agree?

Anyways, despite all these uni work and hectic schedule, I have still been able to find peace although there is the occasional chaos in my heart and head but Jesus have been through all these with me and I really wanna thank Him for that. He guided and showed me the way to handle it.

I don't think I'd have the peace with me if I did not pray constantly for strength, peace, wisdom and the courage. These are what I need in life and I do hope physically I can get these words of encouragement from friends and at the same time spiritually feeling it from God. God is GOOD through it all!

Do you know, despite all the things that are going on in my life, God is able to plant a really sweet dream on Monday night? I slept like a BABY and DID NOT want to wake up from the dream! No, I'm not telling you what it is! But God knows my heart, he knows what I need, therefore, I believe He'll provide when the time is right. =)

I have not been attending the church here near where I live, I don't like the feeling when I'm with them, it is as if I have to put on a new personality and sometimes I feel like if I ever forget to put that personality on, I feel judged, I feel left out, I feel weird and out of place. Honestly, I have been attending there for almost 3 years but I never liked it there. Sure there are good memories and moments but it sometimes does not feel real.

So, I have been attending NLCC for two weeks straight, to tell you the truth, although I don't know many people there, I feel welcome, I feel warmth, I feel noticed and I feel at home. That is how I feel when I'm there, I also feel that God has spoken to me for two weeks and I believe I am not there by accident. God planned it. He brought me there.

Problem is, I am thinking how to break the news to C3 church that I'm leaving them when the time comes. For now, I'll attend NLCC but I have to make sure I can commit to travelling for 2 hours to and fro. God help me, give me a definite answer, help me make this decision, what is Your will?


Blessed Good Friday everyone!

XOXO

Sue

IELTS Test.

So today i took my ielts test.

When i arrived at venue at 8.05AM, OMFG for a moment i thought the whole of INDIA has moved to Sydney!!! If that's not enough, THEY FREAKING STINK! sorry to Indians, but they do stink, i wonder if they even shower once a day!!! :O

Left, right, front, back also INDIANS! :O

Anyways, took me half day to finished all the 4 parts of the test. Oh wells, i have nothing else better to do in my life right?

Went to mall with a friend for lunch, a handsome guy walked pass, OMG he gives the same aura that Yunho gives! Goodness me, i couldn't keep my eyes off him but too bad he only walked pass! :O

Ok, enough bout him, let's pray i hit my ielts target k?!

XOXO

Sue

Annoyed & Frustrated.

Do you ever have friends that annoys the hell outta you?

Not annoying you intentionally but maybe their habits or the things they say/ask annoys you?

I have this friend, not naming anyone, annoys me when I tell her things, yet she turns around and ask regarding that thing I just told. I mean, I just told you, didn't you listen? Don't you remember? Are you that dumb? Whats inside that head of yours?

Also, it annoys me whenever she calls people "crazy" after every comment she makes. Come on, what did that person do to you? Some things are better left unsaid. Can't you leave people alone without judging them? Is that too much to ask?

And I don't understand what is in that head of yours, don't you remember anything from maximum 2 days ago? Maybe just yesterday?

GAAAAHHH! She frustrates the hell outta me but most of the time I keep quiet.

I hope I don't explode in her face one day. Girl, watch your mouth!

XOXO

Sue

Don't Expect Anything From Anyone.

I used to think that my "friend" was really a friend to me.

Until suddenly, she decides to not contact me so often now. I wonder is it because she expects something from me that she never got? Or simply just that she has found another friend? 

If she has found another friend, then good for her. But if she expects something from me, then too bad because I have offered everything I can, all kinds of help. 

You know, I'm so tired of people trying to be your friend but expects something in return from you. I have tried my best being a friend, gave my heart sincerely, what more do you want? If it is "things" that you want, then sorry, I'm not that rich to splurge on people but occasionally I do. 

Don't understand why humans have to become this shallow. There are more important things in life than just physical 'things' if you know what I mean. 

XOXO

Sue

So Paiseh Man...

Hmm... Today after class I went to the library as usual to do my work.

On my way to the library, it actually rained so I obviously took out my umbrella.

Upon arriving at the library, I was rushing to the loo and folding my umbrella at the same time when I walked towards the washroom. Along the way, I did not see where I was going coz I was busy with my umbrella, I actually knocked into a guy. *SOOOOO PAISEH*

When I looked up, I noticed I knocked into his shoulder. =.=" He had short black hair with thick frame glasses,  skinnies on with a jacket over his t-shirt and his BEATS Studio headphones hanging round his neck. Gosh, He's So CUTE!!! AHHHHHHH!!! I turned tomato red and quickly apologise for bumping into him, he apologised too because he didn't see me coming too. T_T

Anyway, yeah I could not be bothered to smile at him as I was rushing to the loo !!!!!

Gaaahhh...damn bowel.

On another note, if you have just the flu, cough or just sore throat, not even fever, would you skip class? I started to realised that people can be sooo lazy that they'll find any available excuse to not come to class.

Oh, and also, some people really dunno what is good for their health, i.e. water. If you don't drink enough water + sleeping at 3-4am every night, you're sure to get sick - sore throat. Sorry to say, people around me seem to be so ignorant about taking care of their health.

"If ignorance is bliss, you must be the happiest person alive."

XOXO

Sue

Home Is Where The Heart Is..

That's right...

"Home is where the heart is."

Don't know who created that quote but he/she is sure damn right..

Today, I took an alternative route and went to NLCC, to be honest, I kinda missed the people there heaps..

So I went with my gut, brought a friend along.

Man,the guest speaker was good. Message spoke to my heart.

The worship songs spoke to ME!

For some reason, I feel myself when I'm in NLCC, even though I don't know many people there, I just feel comfortable, like as if I'm at home. Is it wrong to feel this in a church that I don't usually go to?

God, show me your will. Tell me if I should stay in C3 or move to NLCC so that I can grow stronger in faith and spirit, show me the way. This is all for you. I don't mind travelling far, it is for you.

It just felt right to be there. This is what my gut is telling me. I feel slightly happy after meeting the people I missed. =)

XOXO

Sue

Dancing On My Own

No one can help me anymore
I've been hooked to this song since the day I heard it
Especially the version with GD & TOP for Pixie Lott's Japan Edition
Gosh... GD & TOP TOO GOOD!
DAE BAK!!!!!!
Listen to it, don't worry, they sing good English. =)

Hope you enjoy it as much as I did!!!!! Still enjoying it x

XOXO

Sue

Shooting for an assignment...

Today, I went shooting in the city for an assignment, it was good. We all had fun but the weather was pretty crap like it rained for a while and then stoppd, and then rained again. After a while, it was sunshine again. Grrr...

Anyway, my friend who acted in our film, pretended to fall down and then look like she is very sick and sitting leaning against a wall. Some people walked by and wanted to helped her, one man even asked if she's okay. HAHA! it was really funny + fun. :)

Went to a Malaysian Restaurant called More More Cha that just opened like a month ago to try their food. It was alright, but the DURIAN PANACOTTA was awesome! I think i would go back there just for the dessert...screw the food! hahahahah

XOXO

Sue

What I Learned...

Last Friday I went to a women's event that was sponsored by someone.

Turns out it wasn't too bad except for the crappy weather.

One thing that I took home with me was

"Joy comes after mourning" and "Rejoice in the Lord" at all times.

Nothing lasts forever, sadness and happiness as well. So enjoy and appreciate the good times you have but forget the bad times. Take it as a lesson.

When Barbara prayed for me, she said she sensed PAIN and that I'm just struggling to cope with it and put on a strong image.

I cried so much, like a freaking baby. They prayed for my wounds to heal.

I still don't feel the healing but I hope it'll happen soon.

XOXO

Sue

Hmm...

Maybe it's time i should reveal something about myself..

When my friend told me she was pregnant, it should be a happy news right? I, on the other hand did not know how to react... I should be happy for her, and I really am just that my face expression isn't portraying what i feel... i feel so sorry to her,i really want her to know i was sincerely happy for her and her husband.

I think this started because i've experienced a good friend of mine getting knocked up and going through abortion, after many years, i've come to know there are few more good friends around me who went through the same thing, getting themselves pregnant because of unsafe sex and then going through abortion. I think this has created a sad feeling inside of me because I do think abortion should be forbidden.

What do you think about abortion? Support it? or not?


Sigh... i don't want these stories to create a certain kind of feeling inside of me because my reaction towards friends getting pregnant has always been shocked and then feeling sympathy for the living thing inside of them and then sympathy towards my friends because of the pain they have to go through. But somehow they are OK with it.

XOXO

Sue

Reminiscing Home.

i'm feeling really down.

only because i missed the old times that i had with good friends, here in Sydney and also back in Malaysia a couple of months ago.

it seems like yesterday that these memories were just made.

i happened to look back at those pictures and all i could think of is 'if only i could turn back the time, i would do it all over again'.

but that's not the case, TIME is the only thing that HUMANS can't change.

what's past is past, no more turning back.

the photos will only be a mere memory of that particular moment at that particular time that has been captured and framed in our minds.

i could still smell the air that i breathe at that moment, the taste of whatever my mouth has during that time, whatever i just ate.

if you asked me whether i missed Sydney when i was in Malaysia, honestly speaking, I DON'T. I NEVER WILL. Sydney has brought me too many bitter memories than good memories that my brain does not even want to think of it and will push this memory all the way to the back of my brain.

If you asked me whether i missed Malaysia now, my answer would be "every single breath that i exhale and inhale, i'm missing Malaysia". that much.

it's not a place that brings you peace,joy,love but the PEOPLE that walks into your life. it will always be the people around you that matters, they define another part of you. a part that will never be filled as long as i'm here in Sydney.

the day that i can independently move out of this place and live on my own will be the day I WILL NEVER LOOK BACK and consider Sydney my home.

Sydney is not my home, it has never been, it will never be. this place does not welcome me with open arms but sucked me into this hell hole and tortures me.

my soul is being tortured by emptiness.

"home is where the heart is." I think i have left my heart in Malaysia.

"Sorry Mom, I don't like it here."

If you really look at my pictures when I was in Malaysia a couple of months ago, and the pictures that i took recently these past few days, look carefully and you'll see sadness in my eyes.

XOXO

Sue

Too Busy for Anything?

you know, my friend told me about how he sucks at using his new Nokia Lumia 800 then later showed me a blogger's page, how the blogger took and edit the pictures with the same phone using the same app as my friend.

later, he showed me another site introducing another Nokia phone, Nokia 808 if i'm not mistaken. 42 megapixel camera? not sure. anyway, i can't be bothered.

I think my age is catching up on me, OR rather we humans tend to have not enough time updating ourselves on technologies. think about it, it's as if every other day there will be a new phone released from various brands. we are so busy with studies / assignments and planning our future , thinking about what career we want and how to move towards it that we might not even have time for socializing with our friends. it's sad because we need to slow down and take a step back and look at the big picture. take a deep breath. we don't always have to move in a fast pace because we have to enjoy every moment of our lives because we only have one life.

i think its also the technology that wouldn't stop improving. they know we humans rely so much on technology that we will die if we don't have technology today. so they keep releasing new models to compete with each other, too many competitors. anyway, it's business they all want right? the profit it brings because of Kiasu people who wouldn't stop buying ANY new product that is out just because they're afraid that they'll look bad if they don't keep up with the trend. but its good, because the technology world earns their profit the most from this kind of people. HAHA! foolish people.

oh well,this is life right?! some people are too busy updating themselves with technologies and some are just planning for their future and want to achieve as much as they can BUT we just gotta know when to enjoy and when to be serious. in the midst of our busy schedule i hope that we'll all learn to take a step back and relax, look at the big picture, break a leg before we jump on the bandwagon again!

god bless you all especially my friends who reads my blog, and to all the random readers! xx



XOXO
Sue

Taeyang - I Need A Girl... REVAMP!

OK guys, so here's whatchu gonna do.. Load the video below and read the lyrics that i typed out here. It's only from the first verse, chorus and second verse. The chorus wasn't changed in any way. just parts of the first and second verse.


It's a revamp made by my friend Jynn. She has crazy thoughts. It's just for fun so please don't be upset about it.


Enjoy! 




Saenggak eopneun maltu
Eorein aedeul malgu
Nal gamssa.ana jul
Come and eat sotong yumcha fondue ooooo
Jonah killed a meaty man (this word 'man' has to be read in the Jamaican way)
Cham some syrup kae and some chendul
gonna go in there until the dawn girl


Girl, I need a girl
Mweolhaedo eeppeun
Mom.maedo eeppeun
Girl, I need a girl
Baby, I need you
Girl, you need me, too

Jimat botak chungbajiga deo jal eo.oolineun geureon yeoja
Kimchi bokkeumbapeun naega jal mandeul eo
Daeshin jal meogeul su itneun yeoja
Na.I.ga manado eoryeobo.I.neun yeoja
Nan geureon yeojaga jodeora
(Know what I mean)


that's all..... 

XOXO

Sue

Had Free Hair Cut :)

it was freaking 33c today! 

so darn hot.. i thought i wished my fats were melted...

it rained just now, i wished it had rained longer...

i still need the fan to sleep.

 

oh i had a free hair cut today from my friend...

she's cool, always willing to help and listen..

love her~ really god sent.. 

oh, i went to Subway to get lunch, ordered a 6 inch..

the bloody woman didn't hear what i said, gave me a foot long..

i had to pay for the foot long and brought the other half back..

it's gonna be my brunch tomorrow in uni... pfftt

XOXO

Sue

CN Blue - Love Girl

I'm currently learning to sing this song, do you think I can do it? I sure hope so. 




LOVE GIRL


[Yonghwa] Tell me, tell me sarangeul malhaejwo
Tell me, tell me ne sarang jeonhaejwo
Love me, love me nae pume angyeojwo
Kiss me, kiss me neomaneul saranghae

[Yonghwa] nega useul ddaen nan babocheoreom
Naega neol bol ddaen neon machi yebbeun inhyeongcheoreom
Gaseumi neomu dugeundugeun dugeungeoryeo
Neo ddaemune nan haruharu haengbokaejyeo

[Yonghwa] I want you oh my love naman barabwajwo
Neomaneul saranghae sesang modu byeonhaedo
Oh my love neoman bomyeon ddwineun gaseum eonjeggajina
Neoman damgo isseulge

L.O.V.E Girl [Jungshin] nae soneul japgo Fly
L.O.V.E Girl [Jungshin] uh uh, nareul mitgo Fly high
L.O.V.E Boy [Jungshin] Ye-Ye-Yes we can fly to the sky
L.O.V.E Boy [Jungshin] I will take you there baby

[Yonghwa] Tell you, tell you sarangeul malhalge
Tell you, tell you nae sarang gobaekae
Love you, love you nae soneul jabajwo
Kiss you, kiss you yeongwonhi saranghae
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/c/cn_blue/love_girl.html ]
[Yonghwa] nega deullyeojuneun eumakcheoreom
Nega deullyeojuneun dalkomhan konoraecheoreom
Ilbun ilchoga neomu neomu sojunghaejyeo
Maeil deutgo sipeo sarang sarang saranghae neol

[Yonghwa] I want you oh my love naman saranghaejwo
Neol saranghanigga dareun sarang byeonhaedo
Oh my love neoreul geurin jageun gaseum eonjeggajina
Neoman ango isseulge

L.O.V.E Girl [Jungshin] nae soneul japgo Fly
L.O.V.E Girl [Jungshin] uh uh, nareul mitgo Fly high
L.O.V.E Boy [Jungshin] Ye-Ye-Yes we can fly to the sky
L.O.V.E Boy [Jungshin] I will take you there baby

[Younghwa] I want you oh my love naman barabwajwo
Neomaneul saranghae sesang modu byeonhaedo
Oh my love neoman bomyeon ddwineun gaseum eonjeggajina
Neoman damgo isseulge

L.O.V.E Girl [Jungshin] Take Take Take my hands
L.O.V.E Girl [Jungshin] uh uh, Grab Grab Grab my hands
L.O.V.E Boy [Jungshin] Ye-Ye-Yes we can fly to the sky ha ha
L.O.V.E Boy [Jungshin] I will take you there baby

[Yonghwa] Take Take Take my hands baby you (You! ) know what I want, you
Kungkwanggeorineun simjangsoriga deullini can you feel my beat
Take Take Take my hands baby you (You! ) know what I want, you
Naneun neo animyeon andwae neomani make me laugh you make me laugh

L.O.V.E Girl

Credits to: Lyrics Mode, http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/c/cn_blue/love_girl.html

Here's their music video.

XOXO

Sue

It Doesn't Last Forever

Don't dwell in sadness, it doesn't lasts forever...

I have to keep reminding myself that everyday.

Find a solution to the problem, and I'll be all right.

XOXO

Sue

Exabyte

heard of one exabyte?

it means a quintillion bytes, in other words, one billion gigabytes.

numerically, it is 1,000,000,000,000,000,000.

XOXO

Sue

Please STOP.

God, I dunno what you're trying to do to me but I begged you to just STOP. 

Please STOP wiping the smile off my face.

My frown grew bigger since I came back.

My tears fall without my consent every night since I came back.

My eyes are dry because the tears dried up.

My heart aches because my world is falling apart.

Lord, I begged you to STOP and help me.

Help and guide me through this tough times, give me strength I pray.

Keep me sane before I break down and tear myself apart.

Please Lord, help me.

Amen.

XOXO

Sue

Sorry...

The day that I had to leave Malaysia, was the saddest day of my life.

This is my second time leaving Malaysia, I didn't cry so bad because I guess I knew I was coming to a place with some familiarity.

I'm sorry to be self-centered to a particular person. I thought I have always been mentioning about me leaving and she knew. So I waited for her to realize that I was leaving that day, I didn't want to say anything. I didn't want her to come to the airport because I'll definitely break down, break into pieces. That's why I never reminded her, I want her to remember the date on her own.

Still, at the airport, I cried when it was time to say goodbye to my parents, I missed them with every single breath i breathe. I dunno what to say, but I really dislike goodbyes, I'm not good at it, it's like saying goodbye for the one last time and you're never gonna see them again. It breaks my heart into little pieces, shattered. At least I have said goodbye to my other friends days before I left.

I have to come back to complete my studies,for my future. I hate Sydney, I definitely would go back to Malaysia the second I get my PR and am allow to leave the country for good. Unless things changed in between like having a boyfriend or husband here, then that's a different story. But I have planned out my future career with Ruth, my beloved sister in Christ, and I want to see it being lived up!

In the meantime, I do cry every night to sleep, it's no surprise. I will just focus on completing my studies and try to earn a living here and stand on my own two feet and then go back once everything that I need to do here is done. No more looking back.

Ruth

If you're reading

I'm sorry for being self-centered for not saying goodbye

It definitely kills me inside, I did wanted to see you for the last time and exchange hugs

But it was too hard for me

I was already crying in the car on the way to the airport

Never thought I'd missed Malaysia this bad

I missed you and love you

Pray everything goes smoothly and for me to come back ASAP!

I definitely missed everyone and everything about Malaysia with every single breath

Sue

Maybe I Should...?

Guys,

I will try to blog less about my unhappy moments because I don't think I want you all to worry and plus I'm pretty sure nobody really cares about it right?

So remind me not to post anything unhappy yea?

XOXO
Sue

Saw this really gorgeous guy...

On Thursday, I went to the supermarket with my aunt to buy some groceries and walk around.. We're actually finding reasons to walk around = exercise.

Anyway, I saw this really really GORGEOUS guy in the supermarket and I just couldn't take my eyes off him. He is that gorgeous! You know who I reckon he looks like? Do you watch Gossip Girls? I reckon he looks like Chace Crawford, one of the main actors in Gossip Girls.

Dang it! I soooo wanted to smile at him and stuff but my aunt is beside me. WTF!

ARGHHHH so i just stared at him until he walked out of the supermarket. There goes another gorgeous guy...

This is Chace Crawford.





    


No joke, top to toe, I thought he was Chace Crawford for a moment!

XOXO

Sue

Stumbled Across

I stumbled across this hot guy's fanpage...

The story goes like this...

I was looking around my Instagram on my iPhone and I was browsing through the Popular pictures section, that was when I saw his picture....

I had to look twice, click to look again, then fell in love... even though I have no idea who is he...

turns out, he's an actor/model in Thailand... he is of Japanese/Thai/Austrian background. A really good mix i must say...because HE IS ONE FINE PIECE!!!!

HAHAHAHAHHAHA I shall leave you with some of his pictures to drool on...





Don't drool too much, hope you drink more water to recover!!

XOXO

Sue

Jang Geun Suk, Saranghaeyo

I am currently so into this guy right now. Ever since I watched the drama He's Beautiful/You're Beautiful (well some people translate the title differently), I've been having mad dreams about this guy.

His name is Jang Geun Suk! I managed to influenced my friend Jynn to like the drama but we end up liking him the most even though he act as a meanie in the show. But, he's a really cute and adorable meanie who is a total sweetheart deep down inside his heart! That's why i love him!

So yeah, nothing much more to say except that the drama is highly recommended to watch!

I call him the "Sunshine Boy" because when he smiles, he has that Sunshine smile! I really love a man with a sunshine smile! =D

XOXO
Sue

Hello Hello!

Hey friends,

    Sorry I have been slacking on blogging. Haven't been here much as you've noticed. Pretty much neglected my blogspot. Oh wells,no worries! I'm back and I'm back to blogspot for good. To keep you updated about me, rant about my life, maybe some scoop about my love life (if anything happens,LOL!), brag about how many good looking guys i've seen here in Sydney and also blog about K-pop which is my passion! Nothing you don't already know... 

So keep your heads tuned in ! 

Here's a little something for you.

XOXO

Sue