Pages

Monday, August 27, 2012

Decisions, decisions.

Just over an hour ago, I heard gossips, negative comments, criticisms about my "stupid" decisions in life, almost assuring me that I will regret for the rest of my life coming from the next room. Even though she whispers, I can still hear her crystal clear.

I don't know what to feel, it is my decision, it is the path I chose, it could also be God's path for me. Whatever it is, I am most happy about the result of my decisions. In fact, I just put my trust in God and trust Him to lead me to wherever He wants me to be, whatever path He has chosen for me. 

I just don't get people, why they have to gossip about others' decisions and then commenting on how stupid that person is! It does not affect them, it does not concern them, it does not even require them to use their money! Yet they think they know it all so that they can judge what people do with their lives. 

I know, I think they are just bored and have nothing else to talk about so they chose to gossip about people instead of supporting them in the decisions they make. 

God I pray for these people, I pray that you will shine your light on them so that they can see in the darkness, so that they may learn to love their own family, instead of criticizing and commenting on everything, they stand up and support people who needs it, and banned their mouth from gossiping about others. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.


Spiritual or Physical Satisfaction?

You know how people always say that we have a soul / spirit and it resides in our body? Our body is just a temporary home for the soul until it dies, we never really die because our soul lives forever.

Well, I have been asked by my friends about why am I not worried about getting a boyfriend at all? Do i not feel pressure about the people around me? And funny thing is, I rarely worry about getting a boyfriend, it's not that I'm not attracted to guys but I just don't think about it too much. Am i weird?

And then I see my friends around me having relationship problems or changing guy after guy like as if they are changing their clothes. Then I think to myself "Wow, thank god I'm not the one experiencing all these ugly things/ pain/ feelings."

Been pondering over my friend's question for more than 2 months I think, and then it hit me while I was in the shower just now.

Note: Read only if you want to, not forcing.

Reason why I never been worried about not getting a boyfriend is because spiritually I am satisfied. I was thinking "if you keep changing guy after guy and sleeping with them, you're only satisfying your physical self. What about your soul? It needs food too! " and I thought to myself "i've heard many of my friends complain about every guy they have been with and they DO NOT sound satisfied by this guy at all ! In fact, they date because of covering up their wounds, replacing another guy, just for the company or money etc." They never even took time off to reflect and find themselves, to mourn the past relationship, to wake up.

The bible says "After the mourning has ended, joy will always come after that." which is SO TRUE !

So, by changing partners and sleeping with them and having them by your side 24/7, why do you still feel hollow? Like a part of you is missing. My answer would be "Because I have Jesus, He is the one feeding my soul and funny enough, I feel safe and secure thinking I have Him with me at all times!" Even better than having a boyfriend whom you only see once a week or end of the day and does not know what he is doing other than working. Knowing that Jesus listens to your every prayer, provides you with things you need - never short, and He will never forsake you + He loves you unconditionally.

So yeah, the answer finally came through to me and I thought I'd like to blog about it because some of my closest friends are non-believers and it's hard to share with them because they will never ever understand the satisfaction and privilege of knowing Jesus as their Lord and Saviour.

That is all.



~Friends are angels in disguised sent by God to take care of you~

~Friends are a blessing because I know that I am not alone in this cruel world and I have to thank God for friends~

~Never ever take friendship lightly because even when you are rich, you may buy friends but you can never buy happiness or the love that your real friends and family showed you~

~Never worship money because it is the root of all evil~

~Always think before you speak, speak words of encouragement and blessings into people's lives, NEVER EVER discourage anyone~

~Always show kindness and LOVE to people, you never know when you might need it one day too~