Annoyed & Frustrated.

Do you ever have friends that annoys the hell outta you?

Not annoying you intentionally but maybe their habits or the things they say/ask annoys you?

I have this friend, not naming anyone, annoys me when I tell her things, yet she turns around and ask regarding that thing I just told. I mean, I just told you, didn't you listen? Don't you remember? Are you that dumb? Whats inside that head of yours?

Also, it annoys me whenever she calls people "crazy" after every comment she makes. Come on, what did that person do to you? Some things are better left unsaid. Can't you leave people alone without judging them? Is that too much to ask?

And I don't understand what is in that head of yours, don't you remember anything from maximum 2 days ago? Maybe just yesterday?

GAAAAHHH! She frustrates the hell outta me but most of the time I keep quiet.

I hope I don't explode in her face one day. Girl, watch your mouth!

XOXO

Sue

Don't Expect Anything From Anyone.

I used to think that my "friend" was really a friend to me.

Until suddenly, she decides to not contact me so often now. I wonder is it because she expects something from me that she never got? Or simply just that she has found another friend? 

If she has found another friend, then good for her. But if she expects something from me, then too bad because I have offered everything I can, all kinds of help. 

You know, I'm so tired of people trying to be your friend but expects something in return from you. I have tried my best being a friend, gave my heart sincerely, what more do you want? If it is "things" that you want, then sorry, I'm not that rich to splurge on people but occasionally I do. 

Don't understand why humans have to become this shallow. There are more important things in life than just physical 'things' if you know what I mean. 

XOXO

Sue

So Paiseh Man...

Hmm... Today after class I went to the library as usual to do my work.

On my way to the library, it actually rained so I obviously took out my umbrella.

Upon arriving at the library, I was rushing to the loo and folding my umbrella at the same time when I walked towards the washroom. Along the way, I did not see where I was going coz I was busy with my umbrella, I actually knocked into a guy. *SOOOOO PAISEH*

When I looked up, I noticed I knocked into his shoulder. =.=" He had short black hair with thick frame glasses,  skinnies on with a jacket over his t-shirt and his BEATS Studio headphones hanging round his neck. Gosh, He's So CUTE!!! AHHHHHHH!!! I turned tomato red and quickly apologise for bumping into him, he apologised too because he didn't see me coming too. T_T

Anyway, yeah I could not be bothered to smile at him as I was rushing to the loo !!!!!

Gaaahhh...damn bowel.

On another note, if you have just the flu, cough or just sore throat, not even fever, would you skip class? I started to realised that people can be sooo lazy that they'll find any available excuse to not come to class.

Oh, and also, some people really dunno what is good for their health, i.e. water. If you don't drink enough water + sleeping at 3-4am every night, you're sure to get sick - sore throat. Sorry to say, people around me seem to be so ignorant about taking care of their health.

"If ignorance is bliss, you must be the happiest person alive."

XOXO

Sue

Home Is Where The Heart Is..

That's right...

"Home is where the heart is."

Don't know who created that quote but he/she is sure damn right..

Today, I took an alternative route and went to NLCC, to be honest, I kinda missed the people there heaps..

So I went with my gut, brought a friend along.

Man,the guest speaker was good. Message spoke to my heart.

The worship songs spoke to ME!

For some reason, I feel myself when I'm in NLCC, even though I don't know many people there, I just feel comfortable, like as if I'm at home. Is it wrong to feel this in a church that I don't usually go to?

God, show me your will. Tell me if I should stay in C3 or move to NLCC so that I can grow stronger in faith and spirit, show me the way. This is all for you. I don't mind travelling far, it is for you.

It just felt right to be there. This is what my gut is telling me. I feel slightly happy after meeting the people I missed. =)

XOXO

Sue

Dancing On My Own

No one can help me anymore
I've been hooked to this song since the day I heard it
Especially the version with GD & TOP for Pixie Lott's Japan Edition
Gosh... GD & TOP TOO GOOD!
DAE BAK!!!!!!
Listen to it, don't worry, they sing good English. =)

Hope you enjoy it as much as I did!!!!! Still enjoying it x

XOXO

Sue

Shooting for an assignment...

Today, I went shooting in the city for an assignment, it was good. We all had fun but the weather was pretty crap like it rained for a while and then stoppd, and then rained again. After a while, it was sunshine again. Grrr...

Anyway, my friend who acted in our film, pretended to fall down and then look like she is very sick and sitting leaning against a wall. Some people walked by and wanted to helped her, one man even asked if she's okay. HAHA! it was really funny + fun. :)

Went to a Malaysian Restaurant called More More Cha that just opened like a month ago to try their food. It was alright, but the DURIAN PANACOTTA was awesome! I think i would go back there just for the dessert...screw the food! hahahahah

XOXO

Sue

What I Learned...

Last Friday I went to a women's event that was sponsored by someone.

Turns out it wasn't too bad except for the crappy weather.

One thing that I took home with me was

"Joy comes after mourning" and "Rejoice in the Lord" at all times.

Nothing lasts forever, sadness and happiness as well. So enjoy and appreciate the good times you have but forget the bad times. Take it as a lesson.

When Barbara prayed for me, she said she sensed PAIN and that I'm just struggling to cope with it and put on a strong image.

I cried so much, like a freaking baby. They prayed for my wounds to heal.

I still don't feel the healing but I hope it'll happen soon.

XOXO

Sue

Hmm...

Maybe it's time i should reveal something about myself..

When my friend told me she was pregnant, it should be a happy news right? I, on the other hand did not know how to react... I should be happy for her, and I really am just that my face expression isn't portraying what i feel... i feel so sorry to her,i really want her to know i was sincerely happy for her and her husband.

I think this started because i've experienced a good friend of mine getting knocked up and going through abortion, after many years, i've come to know there are few more good friends around me who went through the same thing, getting themselves pregnant because of unsafe sex and then going through abortion. I think this has created a sad feeling inside of me because I do think abortion should be forbidden.

What do you think about abortion? Support it? or not?


Sigh... i don't want these stories to create a certain kind of feeling inside of me because my reaction towards friends getting pregnant has always been shocked and then feeling sympathy for the living thing inside of them and then sympathy towards my friends because of the pain they have to go through. But somehow they are OK with it.

XOXO

Sue

Reminiscing Home.

i'm feeling really down.

only because i missed the old times that i had with good friends, here in Sydney and also back in Malaysia a couple of months ago.

it seems like yesterday that these memories were just made.

i happened to look back at those pictures and all i could think of is 'if only i could turn back the time, i would do it all over again'.

but that's not the case, TIME is the only thing that HUMANS can't change.

what's past is past, no more turning back.

the photos will only be a mere memory of that particular moment at that particular time that has been captured and framed in our minds.

i could still smell the air that i breathe at that moment, the taste of whatever my mouth has during that time, whatever i just ate.

if you asked me whether i missed Sydney when i was in Malaysia, honestly speaking, I DON'T. I NEVER WILL. Sydney has brought me too many bitter memories than good memories that my brain does not even want to think of it and will push this memory all the way to the back of my brain.

If you asked me whether i missed Malaysia now, my answer would be "every single breath that i exhale and inhale, i'm missing Malaysia". that much.

it's not a place that brings you peace,joy,love but the PEOPLE that walks into your life. it will always be the people around you that matters, they define another part of you. a part that will never be filled as long as i'm here in Sydney.

the day that i can independently move out of this place and live on my own will be the day I WILL NEVER LOOK BACK and consider Sydney my home.

Sydney is not my home, it has never been, it will never be. this place does not welcome me with open arms but sucked me into this hell hole and tortures me.

my soul is being tortured by emptiness.

"home is where the heart is." I think i have left my heart in Malaysia.

"Sorry Mom, I don't like it here."

If you really look at my pictures when I was in Malaysia a couple of months ago, and the pictures that i took recently these past few days, look carefully and you'll see sadness in my eyes.

XOXO

Sue

Too Busy for Anything?

you know, my friend told me about how he sucks at using his new Nokia Lumia 800 then later showed me a blogger's page, how the blogger took and edit the pictures with the same phone using the same app as my friend.

later, he showed me another site introducing another Nokia phone, Nokia 808 if i'm not mistaken. 42 megapixel camera? not sure. anyway, i can't be bothered.

I think my age is catching up on me, OR rather we humans tend to have not enough time updating ourselves on technologies. think about it, it's as if every other day there will be a new phone released from various brands. we are so busy with studies / assignments and planning our future , thinking about what career we want and how to move towards it that we might not even have time for socializing with our friends. it's sad because we need to slow down and take a step back and look at the big picture. take a deep breath. we don't always have to move in a fast pace because we have to enjoy every moment of our lives because we only have one life.

i think its also the technology that wouldn't stop improving. they know we humans rely so much on technology that we will die if we don't have technology today. so they keep releasing new models to compete with each other, too many competitors. anyway, it's business they all want right? the profit it brings because of Kiasu people who wouldn't stop buying ANY new product that is out just because they're afraid that they'll look bad if they don't keep up with the trend. but its good, because the technology world earns their profit the most from this kind of people. HAHA! foolish people.

oh well,this is life right?! some people are too busy updating themselves with technologies and some are just planning for their future and want to achieve as much as they can BUT we just gotta know when to enjoy and when to be serious. in the midst of our busy schedule i hope that we'll all learn to take a step back and relax, look at the big picture, break a leg before we jump on the bandwagon again!

god bless you all especially my friends who reads my blog, and to all the random readers! xx



XOXO
Sue