Connect Group Discussion 1.3.10

well,the topic is on fellowship like relationships with God,friends,family and etc.

so Monica sorta talked about that sometimes shes very judgmental and that she would sometimes say stuff that didn't go through her brain first and hurt the other person unintentionally. so we're talking about how God loves everyone so much equally and that even if we are judgmental,we really shouldn't judge people but love them even though they are uberly annoying and etc. like if you really think about it, if God can love even the crippled or the irritating people so much,who are we to judge them? Love doesn't mean that you have to show by action like caring or pampering that person etc but just don't think negative stuff or judge that person. just treat them equally. like also we questioned about our love for God that the bible says to put God first and every morning when we wake up we gotta think about God first thing but realistically,we're not like that,we do get tired sometimes. tired of worshipping God and we might not have that joy every single day or the mood. but that doesn't mean we don't love Him. we just gotta tell him that 'God,you know what? today i'm just so tired and exhausted from the hectic day yesterday or few days ago i just want to rest for today.' but it doesn't mean you don't love Him,get what i mean? as long it's not an excuse you made up to avoid worshipping God because really,God knows what you are thinking so there's no way of lying to Him.

Clouds also mentioned that we as humans should judge the person by their values and not their actions e.g. being annoying. she said that the first time she came to church she just annoys the hell out of Paul but Paul didn't ignore her and he still treats her like a friend,gives her lifts and hangs out with her even though she annoys him a lot. she just said he's a very wise person and that she really values his friendship.

later on,we also mentioned about fellowshipping with a good friend brings many good benefits especially if they are a christian,well,in the christian perspective, like if the other friend's relationship with God is going so smoothly and is like a level higher than you,instead of you pulling that friend's faith or relationship with God down due to temptations like sometimes people do get jealous coz like 'why God answers her prayers and why not mine?' so instead of those bad temptations to drag someone down,it's the opposite where your friend sort of pulls you up together with her/him? get what i mean? pull you up to her level like bringing you along even though there are chains holding you she'll pull the chains along no matter what. in a way it's good coz Monica and Anna B. are BFFs and they've experienced this many times and they actually said it's so good when you got someone to pull you up. and also Anna B. said that sometimes we humans think of helping out friends too much till we sorta want to solve their problems for them when it's actually not,it's about walking through the problem with them so that when they fall,you are there to pick them up again. this really hit me like sometimes i do think i have that tendency to help people to solve their problems but i realise now that,i don't really have to do that,i just have to walk it through together with them and of course i'm hoping they'd do the same for me.

so yeah,it was quite some intense discussion although i didn't share out everything here because some are private and confidential but yeah this is some of the ideas. i did learn something. 40 Days Of Purpose is good. to those who are christians,i suggest that you go for it,you will learn SO MUCH in just 6 weeks. seriously and this is only my third week man! discipline yourself to stick through the 6 weeks,it's not even suffering,i'm actually enjoying reading the book man! this is awkward for me coz i'm not like this back in Malaysia,maybe coming to Australia is a way for God to pull me closer to Him for surrounding me with mature and awesome people.
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to tell you the truth, i think i've changed a lot since i came to Australia, matured a lot really. not that i was childish before,or maybe i was,i'm not sure. but i definitely did grow up a lot especially through God's word. i think differently now. i mean,i have to admit,i was judgmental before this,i just don't say it out because i didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings coz i care too much about people's feelings and i used to speak before i think and hurt people unintentionally and i get jealous very easily but not anymore and i also have a bad temper and i snap at people all the time,once i'm pissed,thats it. but now,nothing can really pissed me off except myself and most of the time is due to studies,yes,only studies can pissed me off really bad other than that,everything's awesome. but i still dislike one thing about myself which is i get emotionally really really fast like in a split second i can just cry if you say something really touching to me. grrr! needa hold my tears back! needa tell myself my body doesn't have so much tears lol! i even cried once in the Connect Group after revealing my feelings about how i felt when i came here and Monica,Heidi and Becky are like group hugging me and telling me how much they love me etc. i think being around these awesome people changed me,i loved it. except the part where i'm not so talkative like i used to be,Monica called me quiet and innocent. HA! Paul said i needa work on my communication skills. O.O" damn him!