Sometimes I Wished...

sometimes i wished things could be much easier
sometimes i wished choices were easier to make without regrets
sometimes i wished i would have all the answers to my future
sometimes i wished it is much easier doing than said
sometimes i wished that i would not have to be here right now
sometimes i wished that my friends could all be happy
sometimes i wished i were happy
sometimes i wished the dreams that i dreamed of would always come true
sometimes i wished that my parents would understand and get to know me,at least take the effort to
sometimes i wished my life was as good as my friends,happy and successful
sometimes i wished i did not existed
sometimes i wished i did not have a heart
sometimes i wished i were rich
sometimes i wished i hadn't met you
sometimes i wished i didn't have people that i dislike or hate
sometimes i.......

but why does all these things happened?
why does everything has to be the way it is now?
why does life have to be so imperfect?
what have i learned from all of this?
sometimes i dunno what i have learned too
is it because these problems/obstacles are supposed to make me stronger?
nobody knows...
but what i do know is that
i cannot give up trusting and pressing in to God
because i guess only He knows all the answers to these problems/obstacles
and what it would bring out of me and do to me.
maybe it is for my own good

like what people always say 'something that doesn't kill you would make you stronger'
is it true???