To Work or Not To Work?

well,i'm sitting here at my cousin's place using the internet. and i'm wondering whether i should work. after my aunt spoke to my mom on the phone,she wanted me to prepare a resume and so i did. at first when i came to Aus,i was always thinking 'oh alright,i should work so i have extra money to use' but then after going through 1 semester,i'm thinking whether working would be a good idea while studying because theres so much to do definitely and i'm not exactly a very bright student,so a lot of things i do, has to take up more time than other people. so now my worry is whether i could cope with my studies and still be able to work at the same time! hmm.... i duno wat i'm feeling now... after going thru the first sem i'm starting to feel that even taking 3 subjects in a semester is heavy for me! oh help me God! give me an answer please! guide me! should i work or should i not? i'm afraid working wil make me tired and then i will have poor concentration on studies. well,in the meantime,lets just hope i pass the first semester smoothly! God please help me!

TVXQ with Sesame Street?!

this is TVXQ(well not exactly them) who got the opportunity to work with Elmo on Sesame Street for the Halloween Special in Japan and they are dressed as gargoyles. well the people on the show are using TVXQ songs for the show. check this out!

JaeJoong & Micky's Colors Off Shot Movie...

check out this off shot movie of JaeJoong and Micky's Colors,Melody & Harmony video~!!! aren't they adorable?! ahhh..just watching them like that makes me smile hahaha... nice nice~ enjoyyy~

LG Chocolate Black Label Series! NEW!!

waaaaaaaaaaaaaa the new LG Chocolate Black Label Series! i wantt!!! it's so slim...and it's black!! eeeee so niceeeee!!!! huhuhu~sure gona cost a bomb since it's just released! nowhere available yet except Korea!! huhuhu~

Something That I Want To Share...

it's 10.34pm now and i know i'm not suppose to be online because i have to study for an exam 2moro but i just went to the young adults gathering and something happened and i just had to blog about it before i forget! coz i'm still in the mood!

there is this song we sang at the young adults gathering today and this is my second time singing it and i'm always curious how simple words and a simple song can touch my heart,it actually made me teary..

here's the song lyrics :

Though the earth be moved
Though the mountains shake

God is with us

Though the waters roar
Though the world may fade

God is with us, God is with us
God is with us

Written and Composed by Paul Thing Jun Yin

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that's the song lyrics to it.

the first time i sang it i was like 'wow,okay,this says it all' and maybe it hadn't touch me enough to make me realize that, yes God is with us indeed, ALL THE TIME! i had quite a rough weekend last week and today this song is like speaking to me,telling me that God is with me all the time. i know i may have neglected God many many times,though i may distant myself from God or eventually forget about Him when i'm enjoying my own entertainment time like onlining and going to uni and stuff,but this made me realize that God is with me all the time! and i know He wants me to know that! this song is actually written by one of my church friend and it is really good. i want myself to remember always that God is with me. YES! GOD IS INDEED THE MOST AWESOME GOD OF ALL TIME! Remember that! He has something plan for you and He will not fail you,He will not give you the things you cannot handle.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
"For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son,that whoever shall believe in Him will not perish but have eternal life."
"Do not let anyone look down on you because you are young,but be an example for the believers in your speech,your conduct,your love,faith and purity."
"Love is patient and kind; it is not jealous or conceited or proud; love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable; love is not happy with evil, but is happy with the truth. Love never gives up; and its faith,hope,and patience never fail. Love is eternal. There are inspired messages, but they are temporary; there are gifts of speaking in strange tongues,but they will cease; there is knowledge,but it will pass. For our gifts of knowledge and of inspired messages are only partial; but when what is perfect comes,then what is partial will disappear."

some of my favourite bible verses.

JaeJoong & YooChun - Colors,Melody & Harmony perf!!!

hey peeps,jaejoong & micky performed their single Colors,Melody & Harmony at Music Fair 21. Now now girls,dont start drooling and pls go get a towel or cup to fill up your saliva..........

dont dey just have the most harmonious sweetest awesomest voices of an angel?! gosh,i cant even describe the love i have for TVXQ. they're like my ALL-TIME FAVOURITE band in the whole wide world,nothing or nobody beats their singing! and i bet i'll be 60years old and still having the hots for these guys~and they'll still be the hottest old men on earth!!!

Why? How? Tell me...

why am i the type of person who gets angry so fast when people are joking or teasing me?
why can't i control my emotions easily?

today,i had a fight with my aunt all becoz she teased me about something. i told her its not funny den she started scolding n shouting... saying i'm disrespectful and bla bla...

i'm crying as we speak....i really don't understand myself. it's just a joke right? jokes are suppose to be funny right? she's just teasing me..but the thing i don't get is how come i get angry so fast? but i realize 1 thing,i only react like that only if the person is really close to me who jokes like that. seriously,if u're my fren and u joke about me or tease me till like over limit i also won't get angry...duno why i only react lidat if the person is close to me. especially family. i hate myself. i feel so sad... i feel like,has no one ever taught me how to react to things correctly? i'm sad...i don't like the way she said it..but at the same time i actually feel that i'm wrong and i'm guilty as i shouldnt reacted like that with her.

i know i also tease or joke about other people to the maximum and i can see they take it as really a joke,they wil laugh about it,even if its my close frens. but how come i just cant react like how they wil react which is laugh at it. why must i get angry?! i feel really sorry but i really have no face to apologize to my aunt becoz i know even if i apologize,she will rub it in even worst..and end up scolding me 2nd round...that is why i just don't want to apologize and leave it as it is... but her words that she scolded just now really made me felt like 100 over knives piercing through my heart..i'm so hurt.. yet i know i brought this on myself...

i really want someone to teach me how to be a human being, how to react to all different situations. what is the correct reaction to what situation. how to control my anger. how to avoid making people angry or fed up with me.somebody please help... i'm saying this seriously,i really need a lesson on it... i know 1 main point which is to TOLERATE & COMPROMISE but...if i keep on tolerate and compromise and respect my aunt,what about me getting toleration & compromise and respect from her? aren't i human too? if i keep tolerating with people,what about they tolerating with me? to all of you my readers there,please pray for me everyday,pray that God will change me to be a better person. i don't want to make people angry anymore,i don't want to have fights or argue in my life with people around me. i'm so tired of it. i hate it,it brings LOADS of pain to me.

Boys Generation - Gee Performance!!

aren't they just adorable?! Nichkhunnieeeeeeeeee!!! me love! altho i stil cant believe 2PM did it coz they usually have a very manly image!!! JaeBeom looks cute too! awwww how adorable! check it out guys! Boys Generation - Gee!!

Kim Jae Joong & Park Yoo Chun - Colors~Melody & Harmony Lyrics

Ima doko ka de dare ka ga
Tsurai kimochi de
Hitori kiri
Nemurenu yoru wo
Sugoshite iru no nara
Sono kokoro ni
Hikari sasu made
Furisou de ireru kara
Ano melody and harmony and love

Dare ka no tame ni
Bokura wa koko de
Chiisana koto shika dekinai keredo
Ichi byou dake demo sekai juu no
Namida tomete
Egao ni natte kureru no nara

Aishi tsuzukeru yo
Aruki tsudukeru yo
Afureru omoi ga
Todoku to shinjite
Umareru mae kara
Bokura wa deatte
Yume wo sagashite ta
Sonna ki ga suru yo

[RAP]

Kirameku oto ni
Susumere ru toki
Kanashisugite
Wasurete irareta
Melody and harmony
Itsumo soba ni ite
Boku ni yuuki to kibou wo kureta ne

Kimi ni arigatou
Zutto arigatou
Kagayaku omoi wa
Kimi no okuri mono
Sasae aeru koto
Mitsume aetu koto
Hitori janai koto
Oshiete kureta yo

Kasane au ai wo
Melody ni nosete
Tsutaete yukitai
Itsumo itsumade mo

My music is my life
For you, for you, smile
Kimochi ? Garu kara
My life is wonderful
Forever, forever

Kono basho kara

Aishi tsuzukeru yo
Aruki tsudukeru yo
Afureru omoi ga
Todoku to shinjite

Kimi ni arigatou
Zutto arigatou
Kagayaku omoi wa
Kimi no okuri mono

Kasane au ai wo
Melody ni nosete
Tsutaete yukitai
Itsumo itsumade mo

Lalala

Ima doko ka de dare ka ga
Tsurai kimochi de
Hitori kiri
Nemurenu yoru wo
Sugoshite iru no nara
Sono kokoro ni
Hikari sasu made
Furisou de ireru kara
Ano melody and harmony and love

Dara feat. CL - Kiss Lyrics

I just wanna kiss
I never wanna miss
deo jja rit ha ge one more time
nae sum eur gajyeo ga

I’m dying for your kiss
I never wanna miss
deo mang seor-i-ji-ma
nae ip-sur-eul ga jyeo-ga
(2ne1)

Baby boy
wae hangsang halmal-i geu-ri man-a
dap dap han Baby boy
saranghanda go baek hal geon-al-a
I’m not a baby girl
ni saenggak boda nun chi ga nan ppal la
u rin mae il hang sang je ja rireul dor a
dodaeche neon wae nal geu reoh ke do molla

Baby boy
geu ja sin gam e ban haet deon nar gi eok hae
My baby boy
ni tem po saenggak boda neomu jiruhae
I’m your baby girl
he eo jirttaen eo jjae geu ri son man heun deu neun ji
kkoc da bal do joh go ban ji do joh ji man

I guess you just never know
seo du reu ji ma
tta bun han yae gi ha ji ma
eo jjeom geu reoh ge do jar cham ni
hok si nam ja mat ni
mi so jit ji ma
neo mu tta bun ha janh a
nun eur gam go ji geum da ga wa
And just get it get it

I just wanna kiss
I never wanna miss
deo jja rit ha ge one more time
nae sum eur ga jyeo ga

I’m dying for your kiss
I never wanna miss
deo mang seor i ji ma
nae ip sur eur ga jyeo ga

Hurry up
you let it touch
jeol dae manh eun geor ba ra ji neun anh a

Hurry up
you let it touch
Baby o neul man keum man je bar

(uh uh uh uh CL)
nal noh chi ji ma
come on and let my body bounce
nae cham eul seong eur si heom ha ji ma
nan o neul do ’bout to luz control
nae sim jang eun ma chi dynamite
tik tik tok tok si gan eun go fast

please please stop stop i bam eun more last
ba bo gat i ut neun ne mo seub i
nan cham gi ga him deur eo killing me
if you want me too let’s go
chum chu neun nae ma eum eun disco
neon ma chi nae ju wi reur maem dol da
mal eops i hul jjeog ga beo ri neun UFO

seo du reu ji ma
tta bun han yae gi ha ji ma

eo jjeom geu reoh ge do jar cham ni
hok si nam ja mat ni
mi so jit ji ma
neo mu tta bun ha janh a
nun eur gam go ji geum da ga wa
just get it get it

I just wanna kiss
I never wanna miss
deo jja rit ha ge one more time
nae sum eur ga jyeo ga

I’m dying for your kiss
I never wanna miss
deo mang seorijima
nae ipsur eul gajyeo ga

Hurry up
you let it touch
jeol dae manh eun geor ra ji neun anh a

Hurry up
you let it touch
Baby o neul man keum man je bar

(let’s break this sound)
sa rang eun Dangerous
ni nun bicheun neomu poisonous
ji geum heun deul li neun two of us
ha ji man we just feel so good
sa rang eun dangerous
ni ip sur eun neo mu poisonous
ji geum heun deul li neun two of us
We dangerous
in danger danger danger danger
sarang eun dangerous
ni nun bicheun neomu poisonous
jigeum heun deul li neun two of us
hajiman we just feel so good
sarangeun Dangerous
ni ip sur eun neo mu poisonous
ji geum heun deul li neun two of us
We dangerous
in danger danger danger danger

f(x) - Lachata Lyrics

이 소리 들려?
i sori deullyeo?
여기 멋진 숙녀신사분들 넘쳐 Ah Ah Ah~
yeogi meotjin sungnyeosinsabundeul neomchyeo Ah Ah Ah~
자 자 밀지마시고
ja ja miljimasigo
모두 확인해봐 입장순서 넘버
Yeah Yeah Yeah~modu hwaginhaebwa ipjangsunseo neombeo Yeah Yeah Yeah~

반짝 번쩍 Sound 오늘 Style 좋은걸
banjjak beonjjeok Sound oneul Style joheungeol
옳지, 잘해, 그래, 나를 따라 한번 더 가자
orchi, jalhae, geurae, nareul ttara hanbeon deo gaja
앞에 뒤에 옆에들 싸우지 말고 타
ape dwie yeopedeul ssauji malgo ta
이제 됐다 준비완료? Now everybody says
ije dwaetda junbiwallyo? Now everybody says

LA LA 이렇게 chA~ chA chA 로 AH~!
LA LA ireoke chA~ chA chA ro AH~!
신난다고 야~ 라차 라차 타타
sinnandago ya~ racha racha tata
노래를 따라 몸도 따라 가 Now everybody,
noraereul ttara momdo ttara ga Now everybody,
너무 쉽지 다들 좋아 Baby~
neomu swipji dadeul joha Baby~

저 테이블 아래로
jeo teibeul araero
그녀 핸드백 속에도 가득 넘쳐 Yeah Yeah Yeah~
geunyeo haendeubaek sogedo gadeuk neomchyeo Yeah Yeah Yeah~
반짝 번쩍 Sound 오늘 Style 좋은걸
banjjak beonjjeok Sound oneul Style joheungeol
옳지, 잘해, 그래, 나를 따라 한번 또 가자
orchi, jalhae, geurae, nareul ttara hanbeon tto gaja
앞에 뒤에 옆에들 싸우지 말고 타
ape dwie yeopedeul ssauji malgo ta
이제 모두다 준비완료? Now everybody says
ije moduda junbiwallyo? Now everybody says

LA LA 이렇게 chA~ chA chA 로 AH~!
LA LA ireoke chA~ chA chA ro AH~!
신난다고 야~ 라차 라차 타타
sinnandago ya~ racha racha tata
노래를 따라 숨도 따라 쉬어 Now everybody,
noraereul ttara sumdo ttara swieo Now everybody,
너무 쉽지 나를 따라 Baby~
neomu swipji nareul ttara Baby~

C’mon C’mon C’mon C’mon baby come on
C’mon C’mon C’mon C’mon baby come
C’mon C’mon C’mon C’mon baby come on
이 짜릿한 느낌 따라 가자
i jjaritan neukkim ttara gaja
Come come come come on baby
잘날 필요 없어 있는 그대로 몇 번 연습만 하면 돼
jallal pillyo eobseo inneun geudaero myeot beon yeonseumman hamyeon dwae
옳지 잘해 그래 그렇게 따라와 이제 진짜 준비완료?
orchi jalhae geurae geureoke ttarawa ije jinjja junbiwallyo?
Now everybody says
Now everybody says

LA LA 이렇게 chA~ chA chA 로 AH~!
LA LA ireoke chA~ chA chA ro AH~!
신난다고 야~ 라차 라차 타타
sinnandago ya~ racha racha tata
노래를 따라 몸도 따라 가 Now everybody,
noraereul ttara momdo ttara ga Now everybody,
너무 쉽지 다들 좋아 Baby~
neomu swipji dadeul joha Baby~

LA LA 이렇게 chA~ chA chA 로 AH~!
LA LA ireoke chA~ chA chA ro AH~!
신난다고 야~ 라차 라차 타타
sinnandago ya~ racha racha tata
노래를 따라 숨도 따라 쉬어 Now everybody,
noraereul ttara sumdo ttara swieo Now everybody,
너무 쉽지 나를 따라 Baby~
neomu swipji nareul ttara Baby~

Rap>
(Just move to the beatIt ain’t that hard
Heat’s rising upParty’s just begun
You don’t have to be afraid, I’ll show you how
Say it with me now LA chA TA TA
Going all night so live it up
Go with the music and have some fun
Put it on repeat
This is how we groove
Come on everybody
Show them how we do)

G-Dragon - Breathe MV Released!

hey guys! G-Dragon is back with a new single just 1 month after releasing Heartbreaker! this one is titled Breathe! he really doesn't wana stop creating havoc with the charts doesn't he? haha! he's been on number one for 3 weeks and here we go again! i'm pretty sure he's gona take Korea by storm til the end of this year! woooohoooo u go G-D! supporting u all the way!

Brown Eyed Girls - Candy Man Performance! (Sept 20,09)

hey hey,check out this great perf by Brown Eyed Girls titled Candy Man! i luv their performance for this song! makes me wana dance! hahaha...anyways up to u to decide whether its good or not! enjoyyy :)

Something Freaky Happened!

yesterday,i was playing with Facebook and i saw someone on my list played tis quiz called 'what will happen tomorrow with you?' and so i thought i'd give it a try just for the fun of it....and so i took the quiz....the answer came out as 'get $100 bucks!'.... so time passes and just now i just got an email from my brother saying he transferred $100 to my account! OMG THIS IS SO THE FREAKY i never thought it would come true! i was staring at the $100 word and was wondering why is it so familiar like i just read about it yesterday and i logged in Facebook just now and suddenly realised that it was the quiz that felt familiar to me! anyway i just thought to share it out lol! maybe u guys shud try the quiz! hahahaha...below is a picture of the proof! LOL

New Moon Movie Trailer! MUST-WATCH

hey guys,for those of u who duno tis movie, its called New Moon and it's the 2nd movie of Twilight..Twilight is the first movie and tis is the continuous..there will be 4 movies for this series.. heres the trailer for the upcoming New Moon which is gona be in cinemas Nov 20th 09! really cant wait! enjoy it! if u think its cool,go watch it in the cinemas ok! but...watch Twilight first to get a better understanding of what is going to happen in this 2nd movie! enjoy!! i cant wait!! its a MUST-WATCH!

the story is about a shared love between a vampire(Edward Cullen) and a human(Isabella or Bella Swan) and that tis kind of love should be forbidden but the vampires are kind enough to understand because they dont feed on humans,instead they feed on animal blood.they are known as the 'vegetarian' kind and Jacob(the wolf) isnt happy about his best fren Bella being in love with Edward and so he will try to break them up and so let's see wat he will do to keep Bella away. Bella faces many obstacles for being Edward's girlfriend. we shall see wat happens, let the battle begin!

Sandara Park feat. Lee Min Ho - Kiss MV

yo! Sandara Park from 2NE1 feat. Lee Min Ho in their latest Cass Beer CF! hot hot hot! full video for Dara's Kiss song! check it out!

f(x) - Lachata (Official MV)

Yes boys & girls, this is their official debut music video! do u think they can dance? do u think they can sing? hows the song? well, it is made up of 3 chinese girls and 2 koreans. Amber is the 1 who looks like a guy =.=" ... well enjoy it coz i'm starting to feel this song! :) oh yeah and this is SM's new girl group...will it have more anti-fans or will they have more fans? well, we'll wait n c...becuz Krystal Jung is Jessica from SNSD's little sister..the anti fans of SNSD might just dive into becoming f(x)'s antis...wat'dya think?

2NE1's HOT Performance of 'Pretty Boy'

hey guys check this HOT HOT HOT performance by 2NE1..they performed 1 of their songs from their album and i gotta say,it is rockin' hot! i love their performances because i think they are a talented girl group who earn their success by their talents instead of looks,of course i didnt say they were not good looking! but they are a awesome performers! enjoy the song! i love this songggg!!!!!

Lee Min Ho & Dara's 2x Beer CF!

hey guys! the long await for this CF has finally come true! Lee Min Ho's and Dara's(from 2NE1) beer CF is out! in fact,they had a kissing scene! Lee Min Ho is OH SO HOT! check it out! the song for this CF is sang by Dara herself! i loved it! =)

G-Dragon Slept With Someone!

hahahahahahahhahaha! if u guys got the wrong meaning! SHAME ON YOU!!! G-dragon recently posted a picture of him and his dog getting comfy together on his me2day page. For those of you who don't know what is me2day,it is like Twitter but in korean version! haha...anyway check out the pic below!

Some Cute Pics Of Big Bang

what u guys think?! cute?! heheh...when i saw these i was like...WAHHHH! CUTE!!!

Lee Min Ho's Eye Candy Pictures

i find these pictures of Lee Min Ho pretty cute/handsome. dont u think so? =)

G-Dragon Cries On CL's Shoulders

haha i find this picture pretty interesting. with G-Dragon crying on CL's(from 2NE1) shoulders. =) how is she going to comfort her sun bae?! hheheh..

Yday's Emo Moment

yeah guys...
it's me again, being all emo...
damn it la..i hate when i'm like that...
u know,yday me n my aunt suppose 2 go out dinner wit my cousins n family...
den since there wil b 6 of us,my uncle n aunt plan 2 drive 2 cars. but since my aunt(who stays wit me) is being so 'nice'...she asked me to stay home n not go...coz dowan 2 trouble my aunt n uncle 2 drive 2 cars...
so today i receive fb comment frm my cousin sis asking why i didnt go to dinner yday..
i told her aunt ask me to stay home coz dowan 2 trouble u guys bringing 2 cars...
she said it wud've been nice if i came, they would be happy to bring 2 cars...
so u see how evil can my aunt get. i hate her.i hate living with her.
becoz of her,i have shouted at my mom thru the phone b4 becuz of me being accused of things i didnt do (ALL THE TIME) and getting scold for no reason...
i have shouted to my mom saying i want to go back 2 malaysia if not just move out from the apartment...i hate this life...i hate how i dont have the freedom to do things here... i hate that there is not internet at home for me when they know i dont have frens here and all i wana do is get in touch and chat with my frens back home...i hate being alone...


I FEEL SO FUCKING ALONE....................

and i thought DBSK's music will keep me entertained, i was right....only korean videos and songs are enough to keep me sane here...before i go INSANE...

Micky Yoo Chun & Hero Jae Joong's New Tattoos

here's a pic of Micky & Jae Joong's latest tattoo. hmm...can u see what it says? "Always Keep The Faith" so we must always keep the faith in them despite them being in a tough situation right now with their manager. we hope it resolves soon in a good way. =)

TVXQ HWAITING!!

Nice Shirt? Or Not?

let me know what u think of this shirt? i think its nice but don't u think it looks a little wrong?! if u know wat i mean... i mean,it might bring the wrong meaning! LOL.... anyways...........hahaha..

JaeJoong & YooChun - Colors, Melody & Harmony MV

yes guys! this is the new song released by JaeJoong & YooChun themselves! they wrote this song and performed it in Tokyo Dome and it has been chosen to become the Hellokitty song for this year! how cool is that?! enjoy it. i really like this song because it has a beautiful melody to it! really lovely. support them always~

P.S. i might update the video when the clearer version is out! til then,enjoy :)

NichKhun Eye Candy

here are some NichKhun eye candy pictures from the GQ photoshoot! enjoy!! :)

Short Clip of Behind The Scenes for Cass Beer CF!

hey to all the Lee Min Ho lovers! heres a short clip of behind the scenes for the Cass Beer cf!!! Omo..i gotta say...he's damn the freaking hot laaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD

M-Flo "Been So Long" feat. JaeJoong & Yoo Chun Preview

check this song out..M-flo's upcoming single titled 'Been So Long' featuring our TVXQ's JaeJoong and Micky! although its just the preview but its getting me all hyped up! i really cant wait for the full song to be out and the MV as well!!! eeeeeeeeee!!! enjoy yaa! :)

Racist Lecturer

clearly, aussie ppl dont have much experience mixing around with many races,particularly chinese. i've got this lecturer teaching me Academic Culture(duno why need 2 study tis stupid subj and its so fucking hard) and the kind of attitude she uses to treat my class is 'omg why r u so stupid' kind of attitude. the reason why i say she is racist is becoz last 2 wks ago, 1 of the boy in my class was playing with his hp and she said 'turn it off or i'll send u out of the class,if u wana continue to play with ur hp during class why dont u go back to China and continue doing what u're doing and don't come back here' ........that is the exact words she used on the boy.... i somehow think she has something against the chinese. funny is that, today (27.08.09) i was suppose to hand in my report that is due today itself. so the lecturer said we should go up to the front 1 by 1 to let her check through so that if there's anything wrong,we still can go and mend it and reprint to hand in. so i went...when she opened my report she said 'when did u finish this? yesterday?' then i said 'no,i finished it last week' and she said 'wow that is a surprise' and of coz i was thinking what the fuck who do u think u are simply assume that i finished it last minute. FYI i had a week sem break and that is the time i used to do my asmnts,in fact, i had so many asmnts to rush so of course i must finished the 1 that i think it is easy so that i can leave the others to crack my brain next and she can just SAY that i finished it yesterday...i duno how to say it in english but in cantonese is i have already 'bei yan yun wong'........really is what the fuck. i prayed and prayed every night that hopefully i can just hand in my assignments without any complains or watever....obviously this week,nothing has been going my way and obviously my prayers aren't being answered. i feeled so fucked up right now.i'm so frustrated,depressed and sad. in fact i feel like crying and i think i might have an emotional breakdown soon.

Yunho's Drama Teasers!

guys..........check these 2 teasers out for Yunho's drama! it wil start airing in Sept 9 2009 and i'm quite sure its gona be a big hit with 16 episodes. unlucky for u Malaysians, it will air on MBC channel not KBS. awww..! i wish i cud watch too! erm... watch it online! :D ...enjoy the teaser,it's gona be a really funny drama i assume! hehe... Yunho <3<3<3

Dirty Eyed Girls MV

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! guys...........u all HAVE TO watch this!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2 members of 2PM which is Chan Sung and Taecyeon + 4 members of 2AM group combine to do this parody of Brown Eyed Girls song - Abracadabra. oh shittttttttttttttt...................their singing is so out......and Jo Kwon is the only person who manage to disgust me.....he's the only 2AM member i know(he's the 1 in pink jacket) and somehow i find him weird becoz he LOVES to act like a girl......whether he's gay or not,i do not know...but he really has the guts to do it.....seriously!!! ...anyway enjoy this video...it has english subs.......they totally imitate the dance BUT not the lyrics of coz...its really really hilarious!!!!!

Time To Change?

is it time to change? many things to change.... to change this blog's heading? :) i'll see to wat i can do about that. time to change the way i live? time to change the way i should treat people who don't treat me nice? should i continue to be nice to them? and that includes my family members. im so tired. tired of treating people nice and yet get treated like dirt back. can someone help? probably not,only i can help myself out of this right?

many things are going through my mind now. it's sometimes frustrating to have to think about so many things. but right now,i'm more relaxed becuz my aunt has gone to her friend's place to stay for a week. that i'm relieved to know. first to talk about my aunt whom i'm staying with. sometimes she's nice,sometimes she can be a real bitch,i guess thats what it takes to live with a person who is not married and turning 50 soon eh? she's a very calculative person and definitely not the generous kind of person, even towards family. fine,she give me a place to stay, ok i should be thankful for that, DUH! i AM thankful for that anyway! so of course i try to help out watever i can around the apartment. well, everynight basically she wil finish her dinner and throw the plates in the sink, expecting me to wash. so fine, i wash...for 2 months + already its been like that. and sometimes if i dont wash HER things, she will call me and say 'how come u didnt do ur job?' like as if i'm the MAID in the apartment. fine,i wash for her also. of course staying with her would mean i have to follow the house rules right.after all,i'm stayin in her place for 'free'..lets see how 'free' can it last, i'm sure after i get a job,i wud have to start paying for electricity bill and water bill and food.trust me on this. i'm 100% sure. everyday she will ask me 'how long did u watch the TV for?'... she will tell me not to watch the tv for too long, she will tell me not to turn on the heater and that if i'm cold i wil have to wear more layers of clothes becoz she wants to 'save electricity' ... ok fine.... i should just freeze and die isnt it? it'll be so much better off for her. and somehow she keeps criticizing me that i'm fat. she wil say 'dont fall,if not i cant carry coz u're so small' or like last friday when she intro me to her frens she said 'shes my niece,shes very small' very very sarcastically. i hate it. i hate every minute to see or stand her. but i cant say anything back coz i dont want to start a fight with her and im so tired of want to treat tis kind of ppl nicely. i'll just keep quiet and cry at night.thats wat i do best at anyway...........


i really missed my frens back home alottt....i missed the fact how they dont judge u by how u look but by how u treat them and they wil treat u back with a sincere heart.... i missed those kind of people...why dont i have any of this kind of people in my family? ...guess this is my luck to be stuck with tis kind of family. they judge u by ur looks. if u're slim n pretty,they let u go with anything. they are tis kind of ppl.......sigh.....

anyway havent made many frens here yet... just some of my brother's church frens and some uni frens.... u know,it's so hard for me to make frens becuz i dont have anything in common to talk with the people here and i cant crack lame jokes becuz it's so hard to put it in proper english,and if i put it in proper english it aint gona sound funny anymore....my bro's frens are friendly and very nice people. the uni frens i met are too. but just that i cant reli talk about anything with them. dont tell me i want to go up to them n talk about my personal problems? that wouldnt be appropriate becoz i just knew them not long ago...although i have 1 korean fren who talks about her personal problems to me and i do try my best to help her out. well u know,guy problems.... its nice that she open up to me easily..but i was shocked at first of coz becoz i didnt see that coming. hmm..................maybe i shud shut my true self away from people that i dont think is nice to me...and just show my true self to those who are nice to me...... seriously its so boring here.....i'm dying to go back to Msia..although i hate the gov there but i stil have fantastic frens there...awesome ones are hard to find...especially those who know me so well and grow up with me...i really missed them alot.... even in stamford college there,i met almost 30frens and we're like as close as a family.i duno,but i think Malaysian people are more generous/kind/simple like the ones i met,they make fren with me with their sincere heart they dont pretend or fake towards me. thats wat i really miss. coz i cant tell by the people here. aside from my bro's frens.they are funny n nice. anyway i do miss malaysian food alot. the food here are..........................if u want something to indulge & savoury then here is the place...other than that...it is not advisable to come here for asian food......like seriously...................

DBSK Breaking Up??

Just look at their happy faces when they are together... can anyone tell me how can their manager treat them so badly until the extend they want to sue their own manager? they deserve SO MUCH better after all the years they have gone through...they are the most talented boyband i've ever known in my life... they can sing..they can dance..they definitely have style...they have the humour and all the positive attitudes they have shown on TV... they are smart..they can play instruments...they are good looking(not to forget this but this isnt the main point of their success)... and the list goes on..they have been in Guiness World Book Record twice!! no other boybands have gone in that book! they are certainly the singers who we can look up to as a role model and respect despite some of the bad rumours we hear about. but then again,who is perfect right? they are singers,but that doesnt mean they dont have flaws. they are human too! they even have fans all around the world and that is certainly an honour for asian artists as becoz asian artists dont get recognize in western countries. but they are recognize..not in a big amount of people but at least there is some fame for them in the western countries.


On Aug 21st, the 3 members, JaeJoong,Micky & Xiah will be going to court for their hearing and i sincerely wish them the best! no matter win or lose,they are still wat they are to me...then and now... i will support them even if they split.. DBSK will certainly not be the same anymore if they split... they said it themselves before... 5-1=0 ...so 5-3=0..either way...it will be incomplete. if they split, there will be no more harmonious tunes and acapella. what a boring world it would be for me. they are the 1 who introduced me to kpop songs and i dont know what to do without them. i have never gone through a day without listening to any of their songs. this is for real. i am that crazy about them. i love them a lot and i wish they will never part ways.

Anyway,i've learned so damn many things from them, 1st is to take selca pics! short for self camera. believe it or not,b4 i knew them i hate being in a photo and i dont even know how to take nice shots of myself. after knowing them,i love collecting their pics and looking at them everyday and from there i learned to take selca pics,the angles and all. they are such an adore! 2nd is i learned how to dress up from them,it might sound weird but yes i did learned dressing up from them... the mix and match of colours,clothes and even accessories. funny how i learned that from a boyband instead of a girl band.haha. 3rd i learned to match my hair with my big round face, what sort of layers or fringe wud make my face look sharper,slimmer! on the day i was going to leave to Aus,i went to the saloon and showed the hairdresser a pic of jaejoong and i told her i wanted his fringe,to my surprised,she liked how it turned out and said that it made my face look sharper...hehe...4th is that to be modest...i mean, not that i'm proud b4 but i always reflect back on what i did and i do feel bad..and somehow they have taught me to be myself even more and to be modest,be helpful,be kind..etc... anyway too many things to be listed.. that shows how much i love them...

I think that if they ever break up,it's definitely going to have a big impact on me becoz i have never go thru a day without listening to their songs...ask my frens and u'll know.. like last time,i remember b4 i started listening to korean songs,i only listen to western singers..and i was like 'oh i like him,he's so hot' and after 1 month i'll be like 'oh i like him better! he's hotter'..but after i knew DBSK...things were different..somehow this is the first time that somethin like this has happened to me..i have never liked a band and be so loyal to them..only DBSK..especially Yunho of course..i was so shocked and saddened about the news and all i can do now is wish them the best and i sincerely will support them no matter wat the result is...they will still be wat they are to me..then and now and in future..they will have my full 100% support!

"Always Keep The Faith"

DBSK HWAITING!! DBSK FOREVER!! DBSK FOR LIFE!! SARANGHAE OPPA!! I LOVE YOU!!

P.S. i used red fonts becoz it represents the burning love i have for them and also it represents Cassiopeia fanclub colour!! LONG LIVE DBSK!!

DBSK's Picture Of You MV Released!

yo guys, this is DBSK's new MV off their 4th korean album Mirotic. i've been crazy for this song for soooooo looonnngggg! now only they plan 2 release it. oh well, it gives the excitement in us DBSK fans isnt it? hehe..anyway vocals are very beautiful. i freakin love it. if i'm not mistaken,Xiah wrote this song! how lovely!

G-Dragon's pic

i was thinking...alaaaa so small...so i thought of posting it here! i luv tis pic alot! very artistic... <3<3<3<3
what do u think of this pic? nice? like it? no? why? =)

Paranoid.................

am i paranoid? i've been taking a break from assignments on saturday and sunday....and yes i do feel guilty bout it.. still cant get over it.... becuz i feel that i have so much to do and yet i'm taking a rest. well,to get on with it,on sunday night i started to read about my report and think on how to do it.so on monday morning as i woke up...i quickly turned on my laptop and the internet my bro has lend me..den i start to do research on my report... as i did my report..i found out that,it is not so bad...it's not that hard..i should be able to do it..so i timed myself that i have to totally stopped doing any work by 5.3opm..like as if i will finish uni at 5.30pm..so okay..i work hard on it and finally i'm almost done...then i think i stopped around 3pm...to take a rest n chat with alyssa and hsueh li... so i was quite happy that i'm almost done,just left out the title page and table of contents and to write down the reference list. so i thought,i'm so lazy already,lets leave it for 2moro. so i continue chatting away....into the blissful night...

so the next day,i woke up...as usual..nearly 10am .. and i thought..omo...today is g-dragon's birthday,i have to check whether he released his single..and so i did... his music video did distract me(due to the hot blonde hair n eyeliner n his voice..oh so yummy)...so i watched it a few times and thought,omo...my assignment..so of course i turned on my msword and start doing the reference list and table of contents. ok so i'm done, now let's read the instructions of the paper i thought... omo..they want me to put my student id and name and also page number at the footer of every page except for the title page and table of contents and i have to put the page number starting from the introduction page..so since i was on gtalk..i quickly msg swan to ask for her help on how to put the page number starting from page 3... and she was a biggggg help...she went and explore her own msword and taught me how to do it...i was so freaking out i started asking alyssa,fion,feefa,even yin mun...it was so funny that every1 had to turn on their msword n find out for me...wah i feel so bless to have frens who tried to help....but of course, swan's help was the biggest becuz she's my Information Systems subj classmate and we both learned the header and footer thingy b4..so she taught me..and i took quite a long time to do it actually becuz i kept on clicking the wrong thing =.=" pai seh la....

anyway when all was done,it was already 4pm...and i was quite happy actually and i suddenly thought of the music essay and think..oh shit..i havent started..so i quickly wrote the history of punk music, psychedelia, and reggae first..then i thought of doing the reference later.... so i wrote n wrote..and nothing seems to come out of my brain..i cudnt remember much about the lessons.,..i guess bcuz every friday was Lazy Syndrome day as Fion termed..haha... so yeah i did some research and dats it..google is not helping to give me enough information or reliable sources..that is why i still cant freakin do my essay...!!! i asked around my classmates who have done it and they all havent even started and i was thinking 'arent they scared to do things at last minute?' ...hmm...maybe just me..the paranoia... gosh...and i received an email frm Monna,she told me that i needed a rest.... and i start to think...do i really need a rest?? i rested on sat and sun..i'm afraid i might not finsh my assignments in time although now for this week i'm having sem break but is it enough time for me??? week 10 is so going to be packed! i'm so screwed..i hope somebody starts explaining what the music essay want from me..otherwise i wont be able to do it..and the worst part is i hate my lecturer coz he said we cannot use the textbook as reference,only to understand the music style..and i read about psychedelia..and u know what? I STILL DONT FREAKING UNDERSTAND ANYTHING ABOUT PSYCHEDELIA AND THE INTERNET AINT HELPING! DAMNIT!

G-Dragon's Heartbreaker MV!!

ok guys! this is gona get reallyyyy exciting!!! G-Dragon has finally released his Heartbreaker MV! check it out! it's going to have a 3 part trilogy to it! so stay tune! and also... HAPPY BIRTHDAY G-DRAGON (Kwon Ji Young) from Big Bang!!! i'm going to wish him good luck with his album sales becoz apparently today is his birthday and he released his solo album too! do check it out! his fans..the V.I.P.s has gave him a special birthday present which is they donated 12,000,000 won to the Seoul National University Children's Hospital under his real name Kwon Ji Young and they wil donate 1,000,000 won to those with rare illness known as glycemia and continue so on with the routine every month! how good is that?! today G-Dragon will turn 21...hope God will bless him with many many years to come.

SOURCE: ALLKPOP

Lee Hyori's Hyundai CF!!

OMG! guys!! check out Lee Hyori's Hyundai CF..it's finally out! doesnt she look really good???? i luv her..coz i think she's very beautiful and shes very outgoing in person! she has a really good body too and she can dance! u go Hyori! she rocks this CF! oh and guess what! she's the 1 singing the song for this ad! i hear chinese!!!

nightmares......

lately, i have been having nightmares, about a lot of things, most of all, i cant remember them much, but i know it made me wake up in the middle of the night..............

what is wrong with me? what is going on in that head of mine? i have absolutely no idea. i have been having nightmares 1 week after i arrived here. i can recall very clearly that i keep waking up in the middle of the night..... having bad dreams of something really bad is going to happen to my frens back home......i dont want...... i hate all these dreams..... pls God take it away from me....... i do not want anything bad happen to any of my frens back home........ pls God protect and watch over them...... take care of them....... please................

i cant help it anymore that is why i'm blogging about this....... even last night, i had a bad dream...... but i cant remember it anymore..... i just know it woke me up in the middle of the night...................i really do hope none of the dreams i had will become reality because it is not a nice feeling..............and of course i dont want any of my love ones getting hurt..............

have u guys ever had a nightmare and think..... is that real? coz it looks so real...............it sounds real........it feels real........... and now.... my right hip and my right arm are actually hurting becoz i didnt sleep well last night............damn it........... i hate those dreams........ i have never had a good sleep since i came here............. i want it to stop....i wan everyday to be a good night's rest.........God please answer my prayers when i pray for a good night's rest...............even now writing about this makes me cry............ tears are streaming down...i cant help it.....pls..i dont want anything to happen to any of my love ones or friends back in Malaysia.......

2NE1, Brown Eyed Girls, 4 Minutes, KARA???!

Yo!!! heres a DANCE BATTLE between 4 HOT chicks! Minzy from 2NE1, Ga In from Brown Eyed Girls, Hyun Ah from 4 Minutes & last but not least, Nicole from KARA! who do you think performs the best dance??! well, lets hear it in the chatbox aite! or u can comment on this post! omigosh, this is so hard to choose! i like them all..... hehe! enjoyyy!

Nichkhun's 'Let's Take A Break' MV

yeah this is the full MV for Nichkhun's Thailand travel thingy....huhu~ i wanna go Thailand,and he's hot. hehehe... well enjoy..its in Thai..hahaha..

Cass Beer CF (Lee Min Ho & Jessica Gomez)

this is the coolest beer cf i've ever seen! thats cuz they've got my fav actor guy Lee Min Ho in it..oh gosh,with his eyeliner,he can easily kill me with those stares. soooo HAWT!!! yummm... Jessica Gomez is an Australian Model who now hangs around korean and got into korean entertainment,i duno why but i dun like her. LOL. no offence to those who like her. hehehe..anyways, enjoy the advertisement! it's just an ad and koreans get really creative over it,thats why i like korean ads... they're cool! i want the song for that ad too,duno the title though...sigh...

SNSD Doing 'Sorry Sorry'

after watching this video,i wish i can learn the Sorry Sorry dance too! well,here's SNSD doing the Sorry Sorry dance by Super Junior. enjoy it! :) i have to say,girls do look sexy when they can dance.

TVXQ Yoo Chun Has Got A New Tattoo!

yes thats right, now u see it, there is proof! Micky YooChun of TVXQ has gotten a new tattoo! he didnt really much revealed or showed his back tattoo though but he revealed this one! it says "Always keep the faith"..i guess he wanted to remember this time at this moment when he,JaeJoong and Xiah are having a hard time with their manager SM. well,i wish them all the best and that they can get through with the case and settle it nicely. hopefully it doesnt go to the point where they have to breakup. i personally will be supporting them through thick and thin no matter what. i love them very much! DBSK HWAITING! Micky Yoochun Hwaiting!

Hyori's CF with Wilber Pan

yes,is that a kissing pic i see?yep u are right. check out Lee Hyori's CF with Wilber Pan. ain't he the luckiest guy on earth? after he got Lee Da hae now aiming for Lee Hyori?! guys,be jealous! lol

JaeJoong's Mom Wants To Be A Superstar Pt. 2

yeah here is the part 2 for Jae Joong's mom on Superstar K! watch it to find out whether she passed the audition! :D i don't want to spoil it for u so check it out! :)