Depressed..............

have u ever wake up every morning and hearing ur mom nag at u or even worst,SHOUTING non stop like some bloody dog...? well, i have.

worst thing happened today that made me cry so hard! getting scold for no bloody fucking reason.... for now,i fucking hate my parents!

for the past few days my fren's mom asked me whether i wud like to 4low her to UTAR PJ to enquire about the Broadcasting course,so i asked my mom about it whether can be considered and she gave me permission to go UTAR and ask...well,she was happy that i wud be going there to enquire lah...

so i was suppose to wake up at 6.50am and i didnt hear my alarm,lucky me,i was concious and woke up at 7.20am and by 7.30am i was suppose to be at my fren's house,so i was like 'SHIT! I'm FUCKING LATE'...blur blur rush go n simply grab outfit n wear n left so i reached there about 7.35am. so i took the bus at 7.50am n went to UTAR....

so after everything was done,we took the bus back and i reached Rawang about 2.30pm so went lunch with my fren n her mom n den went to my fren's house to chill coz i didnt wanna call my dad come n pick me yet becoz he definitely will be taking an afternoon nap...so i chilled till about 6pm and suddenly i was thinking to call him but it was raining freakin heavily so i was like 'ah screw it,later ni call' .... so around 8pm i called him and said 'daddy are u free? can come n pick me? i'm at Ruth's house now...' he replied me saying 'u stay there la' ..so i said ok and close the phone..i really thought he asked me to wait there..so i waited til 10pm stil havent come,so i called my mom up and ask her to pick me...she said 'i was stuck in the jam why u didnt call me earlier..bla bla bla...' as usual,u noe,MOTHERS!. ok so she agreed to pick me so i waited til 10.30 she finally called when she reached the traffic light...so i went outside my fren's house and stood there...after a while she call me 'where are u??? i'm there already' so i said 'where?canot c u' she ask me where im standing so i said 'middle of the road'...so close the phone..den i called again 'where u? canot c u' ...she started barking like a dog 'i'm at the bridge there,u canot c me ar?' so i walked to the bridge there n finally enter the car,she started her barking again...shouting shouting like some bloody dog there 'why u so stupid 1 canot tell me her address issit? (truth is,her house number canot even be seen plus its nite time how to c) why u duno how to giv road directions ar...u noe u just now walk out frm the house to the bridge so far u noe,dono how to tell issit...bla bla bla etc...' so i just sat there kept quiet only let her bark until she stops...so she stopped when we reached home...tears was actually quietly strolling down my face but she cudnt c...even if she did saw,she wont care...as usual....

do u even know how pissed and upset i was? i was scolded for no reason...i am so disappointed in my parents..i kind of think they dont want me around? i asked my dad to fetch me becoz he knows where the house was...but he didnt come..he didnt wanna come also...he just left me there.... FUCK IT! I HATE MY LIFE! NOTHING IS GOING THE RIGHT WAY! i really need to go to church and kneel down n cry in front of the altar... crying at home doesnt comfort me.... i still feel depressed....