Will the opportunity return if it was meant to be?

the feeling was mutual.

i guess part of me knew i but wasn't confident enough.

is it totally my fault? i hope not.

i feel so stupid.

i don't want this to bug me anymore.

will the opportunity return if it's meant to be?

i hate myself right now.

XOXO
Sue

Friends' Visitations.

so my friends, a couple from Malaysia and a girl friend from Adelaide came to visit me in Sydney at the same time. we all grew up together back in Malaysia. they arrived on the 23rd of July and left on the 27th of July.

we have been planning the places to go and visit a month before they came. buying tickets to Wildlife Park, Sydney Aquarium, Sydney Tower & Whale Watching Cruise. our activities were like this:-

Day 1 :

Michelle arrived at 5.30pm and met me in the city near Central Station. Josh & Nancy arrived about 6ish and went to Maroubra straight which is where they will be staying at and have dinner with Josh's dad's friend. I took Mich to Japanese and then we went home.

Got changed and meet up with Joshua at about 10.10pm at QVB and got ready to go clubbing! Clubbed at Star Bar which was great,the crowd was great that night. I was so excited to see them that i hugged them! it's been 2 years. At the club, we each had 3 shots and still wasn't high enough to dance LOL. but we did dance! it was lots of fun. went home at about 1 ish.

Day 2 :

met up in the city at about 11 ish AM. Josh & Nancy were late. had brekkie and went to Sydney Aquarium. fishes are fun to look at. walked all the way to Fish market for a huge lunch where we couldn't even finish our meal. walked all the way back to Wildlife Park. after that we went to Taiwanese dessert (taro balls). after that we walked all the way to Max Brenner for more dessert. Chocolate waffles & Chocolate Souffle. they love it ! and then we headed home.

Day 3 :

met in the city about 10 ish. had vietnamese food for brekkie, it was great! after that i took them to Becasse Bakery and had yummy french desserts and they loved it ! they later left to Whale watching cruise which i didn't join becoz i can't afford it. i ended up wandering around the city myself and that's when Bonnie saw me and came to say Hi. ended up chatting and wandering around with her until her friend Sophia came and we continue walking around and chat. had a great chat i must say.

met them when they came back and we headed straight to dinner because we rsvp for 6.30pm. they met my new friend Shannon which was good. after dinner at Hurricanes where we ordered 1kg of steak to share among 4 person, we had Pancakes for supper. we went to Sydney Tower to check if it was still open but it was closed so we headed home.

Day 4 :

met up in the city and had brekkie at Myer food court, the girls had Thai and Josh had Kebab for brekkie. yums. went to Bondi Beach and then hung around for almost 2 hour ish. had lunch there with ham and stuff, bought ciders and beer for lunch TEEHEE. rushed back from Bondi to city and did the most minimal shopping in a short amount of time. HAHA! trying to fit time in. we then rushed to The Rocks and Circular Quay (where the Opera House is) and then had dinner in The Rocks. after dinner we went to Guylian Cafe for desserts. oh gosh, this time we really couldn't finish. it was yum though. then my friend Samantha came and we left to Lowenbrau Keller for drinks. at least they've tried the German beer i wanted them to try. we then headed home after drinks. we said goodbye to Josh and Nancy because we won't be seeing them the next day. i got a bit teary but tried to hold it in. =)

Day 5 :

Mich and I rushed out,had Kebab for brekkie and then rushed to Balmain for Adriano Zumbo's desserts. IT WAS SO DELICIOUS. Best decision made everrrr. Josh & Nancy didn't come along because they wanted to spend time with their host family so it's just the two of us. went back to the city to slowly enjoy the desserts. Many people were looking at 2 girls carrying 2 boxes of desserts. we bought like 6 cakes and 5 macaroons. one lady even asked us where did we get Adriano Zumbo's desserts. it was that famous. haha. after that we went home and Michelle had to finish packing her stuff and rushed back out to the city because i sent her off at Central Station. i felt like crying when we hugged and said our goodbyes but i hold it in. =)

i went home and had my own dinner and then went to bed at 8.30 ish. i was that tired, my eyes couldn't open anymore and physically i just don't want to move. brain shut down early. haha.

so yeah that's about it but our days were packed coz we tried to fit everything into these few days which is really harddddddddd!

had fun times tho! if i could turn back time,i would do it all over again.

XOXO
Sue

I hate it when...

i hate it when people cancel on me last minute

i hate it when people don't call or text to tell you that they are not going to show up

i hate it when people make excuses as to why they can't reply your texts i.e. i didn't check my phone. REALLY? U FCKIN CHECK UR PHONE ALL THE TIME WHEN U'RE HANGING OUT WITH ME. DON'T FCKIN LIE.

i hate it when people are on their phone ALL THE TIME when they're hanging out with me. Don't they know that it's so fckin rude and anti-social??! learn your manners!

i hate it when people don't listen or pay attention to what you're saying. Dude, i respect you by listening to your bullshit and sometimes i remember what you said and i dunno why so since i'm a good listener you should learn to be one too!

i hate it when people think the world owes them and revolves only around them like nobody else in the world matters except them. go fck yourselves.

i hate it when people show off that they are better than you especially in front of their friends or your friends. dude, nobody fckin cares.

i hate it when people cheat on their partner. especially if the person or couple are my friends. go fck yourselves.

i hate it when people spread false rumours about others or me.

i hate it when people tell me a relationship means nothing to them. like a fling would be something fun. i hate seeing people wasting their lives away and getting AIDS if that's possible.

i hate it when the person who knows you better than anyone else judges you. they have so called claimed to be your 'best' friend but betrays you.

i hate it when people tries to belittle you just so they can feel better about themselves. hey! go fck yourselves.

i hate it when people just assume everything before hearing both sides of the story OR hearing the person out before they judge the situation. they just love to blame it on someone else.


(will update more when i can think of more coz right now i'm just distracted)

The Rain Hasn't Stop

so here i am to rant about the rain that hasn't stop since Tuesday.

on a Tuesday afternoon this week, it started raining. at first it was drizzles and then it just started pouring.

the drizzle and pouring went on and off like as if God is controlling it. so it rained throughout Tuesday and into the night onto Wednesday and then Thursday and then onto Friday and now it's technically Saturday because it's past 12am. Yes,it is still pouring. it has been the coldest and wettest July in i dunno how many years. isn't it awful? i'm pretty sure somewhere has been flooded by now.

there was a helicopter incident further up north not far from where i live. it was believed that 2 people have died. the helicopter crash due to the rain because the sky was so foggy they could not see.

there was also a news where a kid walked into a pothole. the roads were flooded and the kid was walking back after school and he dropped into the pothole and got sucked into it. thank god he came out of another pothole apparently on a different street not far and it was at the back alley of a chinese restaurant. the kid is only 12 yrs old.

see how bad the rain is now? it's hurting people.

God, please stop the rain. Thank you.

XOXO
Sue

Friends Visiting

tomorrow or technically today (coz it's 12.05am) my friends are arriving from Malaysia and Adelaide! I'm uber excited!

they're here to see me of course! =P

Ruth was right,people have probably gave up waiting for me to come back so instead they fly here to visit me!

Actually, i think they're using me becuz they can get free place to stay plus a free tour guide (me). HAHA JK! i really am joking. =.="

anyway, i am so looking forward to it that i'm actually uber excited and don't think i'll be able to sleep! i'm talking about friends that i grew up with whom i haven't seen them in about 2 years ish since i left and came to Australia! gosh,i can't wait! we're gonna have so much fun!

i hope we manage to visit all the places we wanna go to and fit everything into technically a 4 day trip! woah.

God please protect us and stop the rain. We all need your protection. Thank you Jesus.

XOXO
Sue

Jo's 25th.

i haven't been blogging in a while and suddenly i blogged a few posts. not bad eh? quite productive of me! =D

Anyways, went to a surprise party for my dear Jo . she was like WHAT THE?! when everybody started shouting and pop the party popper and etc. i met 1 of my student there because she is JO's niece! heheheh.. she was so shy around me. sigh.. Mikaylaaaa whyyyy! hahaha.. her dad is Jo's older brother!

we had sausage rolls, lasagne, salad, ciabatta (with tomatoes, rocket and cheese),quiche, chicken nuggets and last but not least COOKIES AND CREAM CHEESE CAKE MADE BY HEIDI & ME! =D everyone loved it! including me,it was so delish!

it was a fun filled party. ate so much. Pinar and I just felt like 3-6 months pregnant after that.

i had a glass of red wine and 2 cups of soft drink + 1 cup of sparkling water. i HATE sparkling water but that's the closest thing i could find to WATER. LOL. so i drank that. when i came home i immediately down 2 glasses of water before i came on my laptop. like what the heck.. i'm already so pregnant, and the water just made it worst but meh, i am terribly dehydrated!

XOXO
Sue

New Nine West Heels

Do ya like my new heels?! i got it from Nine West and it was on sale 50% !

i uber love them and shocked myself as to why i fell in love with this pair of heels.

i never usually am a heels kind of person but yeah. this is LOVE.

XOXO
Sue

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2

okay,so last friday i have gone to watch Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2. guess what?

I DID NOT CRY! but i did get all teary just didn't cry as bad as i used to. i must've toughen up =D

the movie was SUPER AWESOME! like FTW totally! but the last part where it's after 19 years could be better with more stage make up on to make the actors look older. it was more comical than story really. they also could've told all the kids names because that's what they did in the book. it wasn't a very good ending because it wasn't as long as well.

anyways, who am i to judge? you should watch for yourself. the overall movie was SUPER AWESOME !





and when did Matthew Lewis aka Neville Longbottom get so HOT?! i mean, i seriously have the hots for him now. gosh..haha! still dorky but i likes! i love dorky guys.

XOXO
Sue

Blog List Gone

something is really wrong with my blog, for the bloggers, you know how when you login, you'd see a list of updated blogs from your friends that you have followed? it currently says "you are currently not following any blogs" on the update feeds area.

WTF?! where's the list gone? I.AM.SO.SAD.

XOXO
Sue

Don't Get It

you know how some people like to say something to get people's attention and then when you comment on it like just to say 'i know how you feel' kind of way, they go all 'yeah but you should try this and that' just to find self pity? or to state that they've experienced a condition worst than yours?

it's sad to see such people hunger for sympathy from their friends. i guess that is how they find their identity in their friends or to get attention.

i don't know what's their deal. to me, they have probably been through a rough week or rough day and they're under stress, that's why they are lashing out like that. poor bastards.

oh well, i guess that hollow in your heart will never be fulfilled by finding sympathy from others. i'm sorry to say that but these kind of people are just sad.

XOXO
Sue

Bridesmaids.

yeah . i just saw this movie tonight with the girls...





it was a terrific movie~!! fantastic~!! u want humour? it's there. u want romance? it's there. basically a very awesome movie~!! in my opinion of course~!!

it's a total must watch chick flick~!! but i'm sure they'll either banned it or censor the first part in conservative countries because of the sex scenes~!! it's a good collectible as well~!! oh and girls,please do not watch it with your boyfriends because it could get awkward.. but watch it with your girlfriends~!! it's awesome and i promise you'll laugh your heads off~!!

haha overall i had a great night~!! thank you Jesus for putting so many wonderful people in my life. I love them. I sincerely do.

XOXO
Sue

FB Notification in Jap?????!

okay..as you can see this... this is a picture of my notifications list. i do not know why the latest notification is in JAPANESE!!

FB you trying to haunt me?? i did not change my FB to any other languages. i only use english. but no, you had to show my notification in Japanese!!! what is wrong with you?

anyways,that's my rant. haha~

XOXO
Sue

Josh Groban??

Lately,i keep having the mood to listen to Josh Groban's songs..

tell me why?!?!

even i can't explain why..

all i know is that it gives me peace.

i get fed up or agitated when i listen to the songs i normally listen to. i wonder why...?!

oh well, till then i'll just continue listening to Josh Groban until it puts me to sleep. Smart move. it ain't gonna put me to sleep, not for now at least.

XOXO
Sue

Happy Happy Joy Joy - Lovin' Holidays

i spent the whole day watching K-dramas until about 3pm when Keilah called me up to meet her at the Longy.

i quickly got changed and met her at about 4.30 ish . had a long chat,learned to use Final Cut Pro from her and a few tips for Photoshop. t'was good. we even had a little chat about guys. ahem..

went to connect group and had a really good discussion. we gave ideas about what we're gonna do a fasting on. and we all agreed to fast on gossip and alcohol for about 20ish days. not sure yet, let the leaders decide. woohoo! so looking forward to it.

we went off topic because we talked about how we can influence our actions on others and help them to get to know Christ. talked about influence, we started talking about alcohol and then got to the topic of how the girls are sexually frustrated. which was hilarious! haha.. and Chloe has this dog Napolean who keeps stealing food off the table. omigosh that dog is so sneaky but very cute! pics will be up soon :)

so after connect i got a lift home with Jo. it wasn't convenient for her to drop me off at my place so i could just get off at hers because she lives right across me and it's easy for me to just run across the road to mine. haha. so as i was paying attention to the road trying to cross it, suddenly i hear this voice 'I BEAT YOU!!!' and i turned to see that it was Victor (Jo's husband). he was walking home as well. he yelled again pointing at me 'I BEAT YOU! I GOT HOME FIRST' and i was like ,NO I WAS FIRST!! haha... and i ran across the road back home and he ran off as well. we both yelled SEE YA!!!

i thought it was a pretty hilarious sight because we're like racing to see who gets home first which was funny. haha~!!

seriously,if Victor wasn't married, i would have a huge crush on him right now. he gives me the feeling that he's like a father/big brother to me which i like a lot. he's uber protective of me as well :)

so anyways, this is my story for today... i'm really lovin' the holidays where i can sleep in and watch dramas all day not having to worry about assignments. pure relaxation! i.e. living the dream <3

XOXO
Sue

The Real Romantic Songs..

IMO, the songs nowadays sucks. all about sex & drugs and that's about what they can come up with. These are the real love songs. I missed the old times. I missed being able to sing along to all these songs without even trying hard! The songs now are so shallow and hard to make out what they are singing. Meanings are all almost the same - sex, money, drugs, posh life, sleep around with men/women, gays & lesbians. The world is sick, people are turning sicker by the day. I hate life now.

XOXO
Sue

The Why's

i don't get what did i do to suffer with the person i'm living with. need to tolerate her,why can't she tolerate me as well? give and take? stupid. b***hface.

why i have such family members who don't treat me like part of the family. FML.


tomorrow i'm gonna start fasting and pray. pray for the better!!!!!

Nice Guys

have you guys watch this?! it's called Nice Guys sang by Chester See, Kevjumba & Ryan Higa. my favourite vloggers!!! i've been hooked to this song since the released =/

been repeating it everydayyy~!! hope you enjoy it!! =D

do you think it's true?

i'm not the type of girl that likes people to treat me like trash, so i don't agree with it but maybe there are girls out there like that~ i really and truly appreciate Nice Guys okay!!

XOXO
Sue

Here's some random update

okay,so here's some random updates about what has been happening in my life when i did not update the blog.

some could be funny some are just plain bleh. but yea.

- been so hooked up on Britney's new song Till The World Ends. it just makes me want to get up and dance!!
- even more hooked to Kevjumba, Ryan Higa & Chester See - Nice Guys song.
- the weatherman said it's gonna be a warmish winter. means winter came and went so quick!!! :(((
- apparently there was a news about Korea about all the frogs coming to shore in 1 place. suspecting theres gonna be a disaster coming :((((( God please keep Korea safe in your arms. Amen.
- camwhored with my pretty friend on Thursday! i hope she puts up the pictures real soon! x
- became Jynn's lab rat on Tuesday. =.="
- oh oh discovered THE BEST bakery in town so far!! French bakery!! Becasse Bakery. Every bite is like heaven on earth. oh man,looking forward to go back there soon ish!
- friends are coming to visit me in July! CAN'T WAIT!
- ordered David Choi's CD & T-shirt yesterday! YAY! hope it arrives in time before the showcase!
- going to see David Choi & Jayesslee on the 2nd of July in my University! YIIPPEE!
- started going to the bar in my uni a month ago and it became my camp site for the rest of the semester! we end up playing BINGO every wednesday! haha~


i guess that's all for now? i picked some out from my Twitter,haha~!!

Be safe everyone! Take care! Mwaaaahhh!

XOXO
Sue

Updates on my life..

hey hey

i've been on hiatus from the blog for so long. i really do apologise to those who come here often to read.

anyways, i was really busy with my assignments and work hence the hiatus.

so here's a song to say I MISS YOU READERS and Blog!



heheh~if you're wondering did we sing it, yes we sang it !

okay, back to my life.

so i had this crazy lecturer that has so many rules to his assessment that my friends and I were so stressed coz of it.

let me tell you the rules:-

- Margin 3cm,Font Times, Font size 12,double spacing,5 space before you start a new paragraph sentence..
- CANNOT use the word 'it' 'first' 'second' 'moreover' 'however' 'recently' 'finally' , no words end with 'ly' .
- 1 thought 1 sentence
- DO NOT use 'and' 'but' to join 2 thoughts into 1 sentence
- 23 - 25 words per sentence
- 3-4 sentences per paragraph
- DO NOT USE commas, DO NOT USE the word 'instead' to start a sentence

Now you tell me, how to not get stressed up about writing this freaking essay??! I was paranoid checking that i didn't break the rules every time i write 1 sentence. UGH...

Best thing is, this essay had to be hand in on Thursday and on Wednesday 7pm i got to know that i NEED TO RE-DO THE WHOLE FREAKING ESSAY!

I practically had less than 24 hours to finish a new essay. WTH! i was about to break down and cry but i didn't. Instead, i did the research on Wednesday night itself and end up writing half the essay on the night itself! Thursday morning i went to university early to write this essay and i finished it on time!! phew.. turn out it wasn't so bad. i got a good mark than what i expected hehe..

so yeah, then i rushed another essay to be hand in on the Monday after and a video and independent project to hand in yesterday (Friday 3rd June 2011). UGH.. i nearly died.

So yeah that's my life. Fun right?! U want my life? LOL...

XOXO
Sue

Boombox Tour 2011 - Sydney Part 2

okay... so i've introduced most of the acts in the Part 1 blog post.

let's continue with my story shall we?

okay, so after the event, the people who bought VIP tickets are allowed to have a meet & greet session with the acts.

The performers were sitting in a row on stage and waiting for the queue to keep moving. So as they sign the posters 1 by 1 for every fan, my friends, Maggie, Jynn and I were below the stage. We did not get the VIP tickets so we could not go up but watch from below with a frown.

I took Jynn's DSLR and walk around below the stage trying to take a good picture of the stars.

Soon there was a guy giving out some postcard that advertises the next event that is gonna held by the organiser of this Boombox Tour. Jynn took the postcard and wrote something on it. Like a note to Jayesslee and Kevjumba.

Since i was standing below the stage, i caught Sonia's attention and she waved back and smiled at me =) what a sweet girl. Then i told Jynn to pass her the postcard, she saw us wanting to pass her the postcard and she stretched out her hand as a sign that she wants the postcard with a frown haha...so cute.. then i told Jynn to fly the postcard to her and she did! I told Sonia to read it. So, she and Janice read it!

Later, i caught Kevin's (Kevjumba) attention by waving, he saw me and smiled and waved back! i could have just melted there.. haha.. i told Jynn to give him the postcard but of course he was distracted by the next person queuing up for his autograph. I called out to Sonia and told her to pass it to Kevin and she nodded her head. So Jynn again flew the postcard to her. haha~!! We don't know if Kevin have read it there and then but he wasn't looking at us.

Later on, when the queue was almost over, i noticed Sonia kept looking at me.. like she wants to say something to me .. so i told Jynn, but Jynn didn't really care much. I dunno what she was thinking though..

when the last person got her signature she stood up and walk to us..so i waved and said 'Hi Sonia!!! =D' and she said 'Hey girls,i was looking at you guys all the time just now..' we had a brief chat (which i can't remember what's it about) and then we took a picture together! the fact that she said 'Hey girls,i was looking at you guys the whole time just now..' touched me. it's like, for a star to say this to their fans is like soooo down to earth. and she wants to come and talk to us. i mean,how many stars would do that????! U TELL ME!!!



Here's Sonia & us. She's holding the postcard!!!!

Anyway, later on Kevin came out to say goodbye to his fans too! He did the hand sweep to all the girls below the stage (there wasn't many) and i manage to get a 'sweep' from his hand! XD then after i put my hand down, he pointed at me, i was confused, i didn't know what he wanted, so i gave him my hand!!! he took it and squeeze it and smiled at me!! ahhhhh *MELTS* So Jynn & I managed to take a picture with him too! such a sweet guy!!! I like Nice Guys =)




he's so sweet that he bent down to allow us to take a picture with him!!! =D

After Kevin left, it was Janice's turn to come towards us. She chatted with us. Jynn asked her which church is she attending and all and she told us to come and check out her church!! wow..it's basically like an invite right? LOL... feel so touched. I mean, they are such down to earth girls!! Beautiful inside and out =)



This is Janice!

After that we went for dinner and head home, it was 10ish when i got home. i was out the whole day!!!! so tireddddd but it was worth the wait!!! =D

thats all for Boombox Tour 2011!

XOXO
Sue