Inconsiderate Bastards are everywhere....

When work is underappreciated, you'll automatically feel demotivated.

Should you let your staff feel demotivated after having to force them work on public holidays and Sunday when they could be resting at home?

No. 

On another note:

I gave hints that i am heading to the office after the event because i had to drop a colleague off there.

There were 2 other guys heading to the office to drop off equipments but nobody took the hint and offer their help to send my colleague there for me, knowing i live far away from the office. NOBODY. 

I had to turn in to drop that colleague off, turn back into the highway and send my other colleague home and drive my ass home. In what could take about 40mins to drive myself home i took 2 fucking hours instead. 

I'm happy to drive them home but who is gonna pity me because i have to wake up 5.30am the next fucking day and go to work? Inconsiderate people are everywhere. Real bastards. 

What Happens When.....

What happens when your close friend who used to be closed to you like your own sister does not treat you like this anymore?

What happens when you don't feel the same about one friend anymore than you used to? Like maybe you find that person annoying and mean and you do as much to stay away from that person?

What happens when the place you used to stay at and you really dislike it but now after being right where you are, you actually desire to go back to that place that you once disliked because you thought its better than being right where you are?

What happens when you crave love from people and you crave to give love to others but wasnt appreciated back?

What happens when you have changed your goals but people are still expecting too much of you?

What happens when you feel like you have changed so much and worried that people might find you boring?



So many questions, no definite answer.

Worrying about my future and that i dont have enough time. Constantly chasing after time.

Silence = Pain ?

First of all, I haven't blogged in so long as you can see. Not that I didn't want to, I couldn't log in for some reason. Now all that's fixed.......... Here goes....




" Most women use Silence to express pain. You know she's truly hurt when she chooses to ignore you. "

Saw this quote online. Must say I agree with it.

Lately, I feel really fed up with people. I dunno why, I just don't bother putting in the effort to maintain the relationship anymore.

It's really hard to maintain relationships these days, people are so busy with their lives and are constantly on their phones when they're with you. It's like I don't feel the connection anymore. I feel hurt really, cuz I'm getting ignored and I know how terrible it feels.

So I'm just keeping quiet about it. I don't want to be the mean person telling you off and 'teaching' you mannerisms. People are also hard to trust these days, can't tell if they're really concerned or just trying to get information on your problems and probably gossip behind your back. Not to mention superficial as well. Ugh.

Sick of people, sick of life. I don't think I'm going to make it to age 50.

Ah well..... life is such.

personal attack?

have you ever tried chatting/ sharing something with a friend and it turns into a personal attack?

like WTH right?

well, i was chatting with this guy and we were talking about movies, and i told him that people shouldn't post up personal opinions about a movie on facebook because it will affect the hype or change a person's opinion on the movie as well, given if the other party hasn't even watch the movie.

he turn the conversation into saying 'shouldn't post personal opinions on facebook? but i remember reading a few posts from you lately.' and he meant that i wrote personal opinions (none of which involves movies on my facebook) . like dude, i thought we were talking about movies? so i asked him that question regarding us talking about movies, and he just replied 'ok, you win'.

SERIOUSLY, WTF IS YOUR PROBLEM?

i thought you find me because you wanted to chat with me, i did not expect you to attack me. F, if you really wanna attack someone, please find another person because from this day onwards i will NEVER initiate conversations with you, not that i usually do, but i will only give you bloody close ended answers from now on.

F YOU STUPID BLOODY WEIRDO, NO WONDER GIRLS KEEP RUNNING AWAY FROM YOU!

when you told me a few girls scolded you for being so selfish, well, thats because you are! never met such a horrible self-centered bastard like you. no wonder you have no friends. UGH!

excuse my french!

5 minute chocolate cake

so i made a 5 min chocolate cake in a mug, took the recipe from nigella lawson.

it came out alright, but i think i need to work on it more. something i can reduce or add more of something.

it tasted good though. (:

still got space for improvement. hehe

Whenever I walked into a bookstore....

I always feel like i want to buy many story books to read but problem is, my room/house ain't got that much space to put all the books if i buy 'em.

Also, what do I do with the books once i've finished reading 'em?

I can't throw 'em away, I don't even feel like giving 'em away.

Sigh....

#firstworldproblem

resign

so i decided to resign from my job because it has taken a toll on me.

thanks to the store manager, i can no longer stand him. my 2nd boss has also decided to transfer branch end of this week. its saddening that everyone is deciding to leave 1 by 1. but it's also good to see the store fall apart under this current store manager's hands.

sick and tired of the management. i'm leaving for good, for my own sake, for my own happiness.

please pray for me to find another suitable job. i'm happy to work in retail, just happened to be under some shitty management this time around. i pray that i can look for a better company and one that i'm happy to work for.

thanks for the support and prayers. peace out~

true story

something true and wise that i read online and i totally agree with it ! so i would like to share it here to remind myself to love myself more.




~ as you grow older, you will realise that it is not important to have many friends but more important to have real friends beside you.


you will also realised that you will not take any bull shit at work because you value your own happiness more. why suffer silently at work when you can be honest and just leave to find something you will love doing. and by doing that, you will find true happiness in life.

the horror

i have been thinking to quit my job for a while now coz of the asshole store manager.

today my regional manager talked to me about confirming me, she was asking if i needed a transfer of branch, or switch brands because Cotton On has many sub-brands like Typo. I told her i needed a week to think about it because of commitments like travelling for almost 2 hours to reach my destination every day. it tires me out and i dislike it.

i duno how to tell her i'm planning to quit and i only have one week! gahhh~

Arctic Monkeys

so my part-timer tried influencing me to listen to indie music and tells me mainstream is shitty.

i agree that mainstream is shitty but i really like the beat. lol


anyways, he recommended me 2 songs from Arctic Monkeys and I end up liking it. =.=

1. Arctic Monkeys - Why'd you only call me when you're high
2. Arctic Monkeys - Do I wanna know?

tell me your opinions. happy listening!

girls, would you date.... ?

to all the gorgeous ladies,

would you date younger guys?

by young i mean more than 3 years younger?

i have friends who are dating/married to younger guys and wonder if i would accept it personally... would age matter?

my conclusion, age is just a number, provided if the guy can provide and is super good to me, that would be ideal.

not picky at all haha :P

concerts anyone?

i want to go to FT Island and Super Junior Show 5 in KL, any takers?

i need a kaki.


SIGH....

gotten lazy to blog but here's one..

sorry blog for abandoning you. you were always here for me when i needed to rant, and right now, here's one rant from me.

so i've graduated and entered the working world recently. couldn't find a job or should i say, never given the opportunity to try out new things because all companies want to hire people with 'experience'. nuff said. you get where i'm going with this...

so anyways, i took on a job at Cotton On in Pavilion KL, a retail brand from Australia where i worked at for 3 months casually back in Aussieland before my student visa expired and i had to leave.

at first, i hated the second-in-charge boss, he's a dick most of the time because he is too forward with his words and sometimes talk shit because of his stupid mouth but he's actually quite an understanding boss as well as a protective of staff kind of boss which i like, direct is good, means you get to change and improve as well. but not long ago in July, we gotten a new store manager named D. (I would say stands for Dick because he's worse than a dickhead, he's a bastard) excuse my french, i'm very pissed with him.

this new store manager started out good, like being nice to everyone, listens to our needs and wants and works OKAY in teamwork i guess ( i wouldn't say too good but average). recently he started to show his true colours which makes him a total bastard/jerk/fucktard... whatever names you and I could think of, he is one.

he only thinks for himself and only himself. he is most important compare to everyone else, even part-timers when they are the ones doing a good job in maintaining the tidyness of the store. my 2nd-in-charge could not stand him even in the first week of him being in the store. they fought in the Reports group chat in Whatsapp where my Regional manager and 6 other stores are also in the chatroom. i was so shocked, and soon enough, my 2nd-in-charge revealed to me that he has scolded D twice before the fight because of his selfish behaviour and also for his constant reporting of his staffs' mistakes and flaws to our regional mgr behind our backs before even giving us warnings or constructive criticisms. I HATE BACKSTABBERS!

when my part timers and also my 2nd-in-charge wanted to take leave because of family emergencies, D would not allow them to do so and thinks that those 'emergencies' can be put off because the 'job' is more important than family. well, to this day, NOBODY talks to D , not even a 'hello' or 'bye' , nobody acknowledges his existence in the store, everyone talks behind his back now, does not do works that needed to be done because we want to let him drown in workload.

just last thursday, D was scheduled to come in from 8am-5pm shift but his car had broke down or something like that and came in at 4.15pm. so automatically everyone expected him to stay til closing time 10.30pm but NO, he left at 8.15pm and only told me and my 2nd in charge around 7ish and he left quietly without us knowing he had already left the store. we were furious because we are on closing shift and even if he stayed til closing it would've been 6 hours only so whats his prob? best part is that he did not leave the store key for us so both of us didn't have the key to close the shop and we only realised this 20minutes before 10pm. I had to call my 3rd in charge to come and drop the key to us, when he found out D had left at 8pm he was furious too!

and when everyone knew what had happened, or what he did, 1 by 1 started playing up. taking MCs or emergency leaves on days that D is working so that he could struggle in store by himself. that includes my part-timers. but he deserves it, everyone is cursing him behind his back as well. isn't it sad to come in to work where nobody acknowledges your existence? well, he brought this on himself, the whole store is against him right now.


there goes my rant... sorry it's too long but i actually shortened all the stories and only told one in full length. i am depressed and upset at work and want to leave. i hope God grants me a job right now so i can quit this job ASAP. i can't work under people like him and especially when my Regional is on his side too. everyone is leaving and i need to leave too! *sad*



SIGH......

Sneak Peek into a Girl's Thoughts

i'm pretty sure guys wouldn't understand this but please don't mislead a girl and try to make her fall for you and then disappear or stop being nice to her.

when a girl falls for you, it's really hard for her to get over you. so please think carefully whether you really want the girl to be your girlfriend before you actually make advances towards her and make her fall for you. if you're not gonna be consistent about your actions, i'd say please stay away from the girl, because in the end it is the girl who suffers the most. 

it's really selfish for a guy to make every girl in your circle of friends like you so that you can feel macho or manly or that you'd have 'choices' because of your ego. be sensitive and think of the girl's feelings as well please. like i said, if you're not planning to keep the girl as your girlfriend then don't make a girl fall for you by leading her on. 

i've seen my girl friends suffer around me because of these kind of guys, and trust me, it's not a pretty sight. since i have also been one of the victims, i know EXACTLY how it feels to be rejected or ditched later by the guy. and i'm speaking about emotionally being ditched aside. 

guys, grow up and be a man, go after a girl only when you've decided that you want to keep her forever in your life, don't make advances and then ditch us aside, we're not your toys to play with. we're humans with feelings as well. i know that nowadays, there are plenty of girls that make it so easy for you guys because they take on the dominant role and confess their feelings first, but if you really are a man, you will respect all girls and treat us nice whenever but don't cross the line if you don't want to keep us by your side, we're still happy to be your friend, just don't let our feelings get hurt and ditch us aside. once a girl gets too emotional, she is prone even to suicide. 

speaking from experiences, i suffered a lot and even got into despression, i didn't know what to do, but luckily there are still friends that i can count on and also God who stayed by my side and comfort me, guiding me to move on. but for those who don't know about God, it's really hard for them and i actually have friends who took a really long time like a year to actually get over a guy she thought that would potentially be her boyfriend. 

who is to say that nice guys finish last? nice guys are mostly taken. what about NICE girls who finish last? we are the nice girls and yet nobody notices, because there are other girls who makes it so easy for a guy to get without the guy having to put much effort in it. we, the nice girls, would like guys to put in effort to get us because we can then see the sincerity of your heart, so that we know you really want us, but nowadays, guys just go with whoever comes along and confesses to them, so then, what is gonna happen to us NICE girls? should we still wait around for our Mr. Right to come and sweep us off our feet? reason why we don't make the first move because this is not the tradition, back in the days, the guys are the one making the first move.

has society changed so much that we get left behind? are there any guys out there who believe that guys should be the one making the first move? i have had a guy friend coming up to me telling me that his ego was shattered because the girl made the first move and he's not used to that. are there any more of this kind of guys? 

XOXO

Suey

Rant

i dislike anti-social  rude people. especially when they're hanging out with me, they'll just look / play with their phone or chat on whatsapp etc with their friends as if i'm invisible. especially while i'm talking, can you stop playing with your phone and focus? so rude of you.

you made me sat there like i was invisible.

are you hanging out with your phone or me?

i think humans have become a slave to technology, it's not technology who serves us now but us serving the technology. wake up you idiots ! stop being rude to your friends / love ones. don't sit at the dining table with your parents and play with your phone while having a meal, it's down right rude and it's like you're not educated  with manners.

XOXO

Suey

Concerts I've Been To Since October...

1. Wonder Girls
2. Big Bang (bought ticket)
3. Lee Seung Gi
4. 2AM
5. NU'EST

wow. also, i attended Jay Park on 27th September 2012 in Sydney before i flew back.


woot ! concert filled my end of the year.

XOXO

Suey

MEME T-SHIRT

Oh, i bought a meme t-shirt on Sunday. for the fun of it.

it's pretty cool.

XOXO

Suey

Honey, I'm Home.

wow !

hey people, don't know if there's anyone who still reads my blog but hey! i'm back in Malaysia and this time it is for good, i hope.

i missed the friends, the food, my parents of course and the malls. basically everything and it feels good to be back!

i will update what has happened during my stay for 2 months now.

i've been job hunting but there ain't no news yet from any of the companies that i have applied. please pray for me and for job opportunities. i need to start somewhere. friends have been helpful, giving me advices etc. love you people to bits.

as for now, since i am not employed yet, i have been blessed with so many outings and concert tickets, to satisfy my crave and love for kpop music, my best friend Ruth, whom is like my own sister, works in a radio, has been generous enough to bless me with tickets to at least 5 concerts so far.

I WANNA SAY
THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART ! I REALLY ENJOYED EACH CONCERT !

I remember arriving in Malaysia on a Thursday night and my friend told me that we got tickets to Wonder Girls which will be playing 2 days later, i was shocked. LOL

anyway, every other concert is a shock and excitement for me. enjoyed it to the max nevertheless!

update more in next post.

XOXO

Suey

I Remember...

I remember...

the first time I met you in your car, you came to pick my brother and I up for a late night movie.

after I told your cousin what I came to Australia to study, you immediately said "maybe you should work on your communication skills".

did you know? it was only my second week here in a foreign country, still missing my friends and family back home, trying to absorb and trying to adapt to the environment here.. and here you are, saying such harsh words to me when we just met for the FIRST TIME.

funny how time flies, and it was obvious that you had a crush on me, and had made me fell hard for you.

in a way, I hated you for that. but I managed to get over you.

so here's to you, engaged and found someone you're happy being with.

Cheers.

XOXO

Sue

Decisions, decisions.

Just over an hour ago, I heard gossips, negative comments, criticisms about my "stupid" decisions in life, almost assuring me that I will regret for the rest of my life coming from the next room. Even though she whispers, I can still hear her crystal clear.

I don't know what to feel, it is my decision, it is the path I chose, it could also be God's path for me. Whatever it is, I am most happy about the result of my decisions. In fact, I just put my trust in God and trust Him to lead me to wherever He wants me to be, whatever path He has chosen for me. 

I just don't get people, why they have to gossip about others' decisions and then commenting on how stupid that person is! It does not affect them, it does not concern them, it does not even require them to use their money! Yet they think they know it all so that they can judge what people do with their lives. 

I know, I think they are just bored and have nothing else to talk about so they chose to gossip about people instead of supporting them in the decisions they make. 

God I pray for these people, I pray that you will shine your light on them so that they can see in the darkness, so that they may learn to love their own family, instead of criticizing and commenting on everything, they stand up and support people who needs it, and banned their mouth from gossiping about others. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.